Chapter 461: Evil God Ritual - The Boathouse

"I'm very curious about that." Bai six tilted her head slightly, smiling, "What is it like to fall in love with a creation that doesn't respond, to delude itself into love?"

"Do you suffer when you watch Tavel reading alone in church, when he looks back at you?"

"You do mind that, don't you?"

"Nobody likes a kind that makes them miserable, you just don't have a choice."

"After all, since you were born, you have never received spontaneous love from other humans, all you have traded in, feelings that fit all sorts of conditions, so you can't tell if they respond to you because of the external things you give them, or because they are your kind?"

" Xie Ta was like this, Lu Yizhan was like this, your later teammates, Muke, Mu Sicheng, Liu Jiayi, Tang Erda, each and every one of them."

"You have to meet certain expectations and give them what they want in order to get them to come near you."

"So did you really get their affection for you? Or did you just get them to be there for you briefly by buying them?"

"If one day you can no longer give the goods you trade, will they abandon you forever and leave you?"

Bai six curled his lips, "- like the once dead Xie Ta."

Bai Liu's breathing slows as he hangs his head, his hair falling from his forehead to cover his face, his expression unreadable, his body slowly shrinking, dressed in a kimono that turns into a wide uniform from the orphanage, his body becoming thin and frail, and finally taking on the appearance of fourteen-year-old Bai Liu.

A thin Bai Liu sits motionless in an audience chair opposite the watery wall, drops of water falling from the ends of her hair into the universe.

[System Warning: Player Bai Liu has been attacked by the evil god Bai six, his spirit value has dropped, about to drop below 60, seeing hallucinations ......]

Bai six smiles and looks across the watery wall at Bai Liu, or little Bai six, aged fourteen.

"You are essentially the same as Tavel at the beginning, who gathered these people to himself by pre-giving them free of charge, but I have proved in countless experiments that such pre-giving does not bring love, only desire."

"Are you sure that what you're trading from the others now is really feelings and not some kind of desire that looks like feelings?"

Bai six lowered his eyes as if in pity: "You, like Tavel, are a lonely god."

"It just doesn't have a soul and doesn't feel lonely and miserable when it doesn't get a response or love, but you do."

"Your soul will only endlessly produce pain because of the lack of love."

[System warning: Player Bai Liu's spirit level continues to drop and will soon fall below 40!

Water gradually seeped out of Bai Liu's clothes and it was as if he had fallen into a non-existent pool. His hair and clothes began to levitate in the universe, his hands floated in front of him and a door-like black hole appeared spinning directly beneath him with a faint silvery-blue glow inside.

Bai six looked at Bai Liu with those silvery blue eyes and smiled, and continued.

"The pain that a person is born from their soul will bind them, trapping them in place unable to move forward, like a silk thread, only to be manipulated by this pain and then slowly become a puppet of it."

A thread of transparent silk flying out of the depths of the universe wrapped around Bai Liu's wrist, lifting his thin wrist like a puppet on a string.

" Tavel is a true monster and you are a monster with a soul, you were not of the same kind from the beginning."

Bai six whispered.

"And you are surrounded by human beings, good and bad, who have been loved and who have loved others, who have gained souls because of the pain that others have produced, who have human beings who really hold them."

"They do not come from the same place as you, and even if they wander to you at this moment, they will not end up in the same place with you, because you are not of the same kind, and because they all have their own place to return to, and those who welcome them back."

"You're just a god who took them in for a short time."

Bai six looks across the watery wall at fourteen-year-old Bai Liu: "When they leave, you'll still be alone."

"No one will stop for you."

"No one in this world ever expected you to be born, no one ever expected you to grow, no one ever expected you to become a good person, and you, as a derivative of an evil god, struggled to control your desires and satisfy their conditions to turn yourself into an ordinary good person, thereby turning yourself into one of their kind and gaining their fleeting affection."

"-it's like fourteen-year-old you turned yourself into a monster in order to give yourself the monster-like Tavel."

"After all these years and all this effort, you still haven't found your kind, Bai Liu ."

[System Warning: Player Bai Liu's Spirit Level continues to drop and will soon drop below 20!

Two silk threads fly out and tie around Bai Liu's left wrist and neck, and he slowly raises his head as the threads pull him up.

"In this world, I am the only one who has been watching you and expecting you since the beginning of your existence."

Bai six takes off his right glove, looks down and holds the side of Bai Liu's face with his right hand, his tone is very soft.

"I know what you're thinking and understand everything you have to do, and I will hold the most interesting game in the world in front of you."

"- The birth of your soul surprised me and made me give up that old creation, and your growth and self-restraint made me feel that I saw the most valuable thing in this world."

"You opened my eyes to the possibility of a human being with a soul becoming a god, guarding the gate in endless pain and loneliness."

Bai Liu's warm palm caresses the side of his face, his thumb brushing under Bai Liu's eyes, his face a compassionate smile.

"I know that if it were you, even with all the abysses, darkness, hatred, lust, and other negative emotions pouring over you on the other side of the door, you could still maintain your sanity and keep your soul in some kind of love that comes from nowhere to keep the human shape and guard the door for eternity in the vast and infinite universe. "

"-like guarding the people you thought were your own kind, even though they weren't."

"Of all the world lines you can perceive, the person who expects you to live all the time, who can truly understand your thoughts, the closest thing to your kind of existence, is actually just me, who you hate."

Bai six crouched half on one knee in front of Bai Liu, his silvery blue eyes fading to a deep blue as he gazed at the fourteen-year-old sitting in the chair and stroked his soft hair like a gentle and friendly elder.

"Of the 658 world lines, you are the derivative that I have borne the most malice from, so many haters who hate you, yet I can give you no help but to watch you struggle again and again with the malice given by others."

"I'm sorry."

Bai six suddenly leaned forward and embraced little Bai Liu, burying his head in Bai Liu's thin shoulders and hugging his thin, paper-like shoulder blades tightly, his voice becoming earnest.

"I'm sorry."

"In all those 658 worldline games, you exceeded my expectations, and I did hurt many people, but only you, and it was not my intention to toy with you in this game."

"You are not the game npc I set out to play, nor are you one of those creatures that evolved from the world line that was born out of my palm."

"- you are just a me without a kind, but with a soul."

Bai six gently pats the motionless little Bai Liu on the back, as if soothing a child.

"I was thinking a long, long time ago, after seeing you dive into the church and stuff yourself into the arms of Xie Ta, who was covered in blood and water-"

"- What if, at this time, instead of twisting yourself into a Xie Ta embrace to get that bloody and icy hug, someone came along and offered to hug you?"

"What if I came to you as one of your kind and embraced you?"

"But I can't touch you, but I want to." Bai six's tone became soft and light, "He's already a human, he has a soul, he's loving others, and one day he'll wait for the one who comes to offer to embrace him."

"So I'm watching quietly beside you, waiting with you, waiting for that person to appear."

"In these ten years you've had people who have fought alongside you, people who looked up to you and believed in you, people who stopped you from going astray, people who have been responsible for you, people who have surrounded you with so many people obviously -"

"- but still no one who comes to offer you a hug."

"You have become an omnipotent god and a monster without evil in the eyes of others, but still no one thinks of you as a human being."

"Only me." Bai six whispered, "Only I know that you are a human being with a soul, a good boy who has always loved others."

"You're waiting for a hug."

"I thought humans were a mirror reflecting emotions and that you who gave love would have waited for your own hug long ago, but to my surprise you took in so many people and it was me who finally gave you a hug."

Bai Liu's eyes were open and emotionless as he looked behind the watery wall at the cold statue of Tavel, whose eyes reflected the fourteen year old himself huddled in a chair, held by Bai six's shoulders.

Bai Liu opened his interfering mouth and said [Xie Ta] very softly with his muzzle.

Tavel opened his emotionless silver-blue eyes and did not respond to him.

Then a tear fell from Bai Liu's eye very slowly, very slowly, and he heard Bai six whisper as if with a sigh.

"Be my heir, my child."

"This is where you will end up."

[System warning: Player Bai Liu's spirit value will soon be zero! Warning! WARNING!!!]