Chapter 191: Do you think I would hate you?

Qingcheng Xie is blind in one eye.

He went to Meiyu for an examination after finally completing all the investigations related to the case.

The examination was done by the director himself, saying that his health was already very bad, and that the eye should be due to too many tears and the heavy stimulation he received, all of which combined to make the optic nerve in his left eye completely damaged, and it was difficult to recover.

Qingcheng Xie listened calmly, saying that he did not shed any tears.

The dean paused for a moment, looking at his almost bloodless lips, and the eyes that could not see any light. He said, "There are tears that don't flow. But that doesn't mean they don't exist, or even never stop."

"You talk a lot of mystery."

"Only you know in your own heart if what I say is true."

Qingcheng Xie didn't bother to talk to him anymore. He seemed to be too lazy to argue with anyone now. Like a stubborn old man, he went home alone without saying a word.

Afraid of his sadness, Xue Xie and Dongheng Wei , Aunt Li and Zheng team ...... they all went to visit him, trying to comfort him.

But Qingcheng Xie was calm, as if it was not his own eyes that had lost their light.

He remembered that Yu He used to say that his eyes were beautiful. Maybe Yu He really hated him when he left, took away one of his eyes and his eyes became a blood-red rose that went with him.

Yu He picked this rose.

That's not a bad thing, if he likes it.

Qingcheng Xie thought, and closed his eyes wearily.

He is now more easily tired than before, perhaps because the string that has been taut for twenty years has finally loosened.

Now, he has found the answer, Rong Wei was sentenced to prison on the day of sentencing, no surprise is the death penalty, in Yu He's information, identified the City Council in the City Council has been Rong Wei and Zhilong Huang and other people as an umbrella of the big black police, through the Zheng team has been secretly collected evidence, the three evidence, all three. The big protector was arrested and taken into custody. The Ministry of Public Security used Yu He's last message to locate Mandela Island and intercepted a lot of valid information in preparation for a raid on Duan Wen's lair.

The fallen were rightly named and the tombstones entered the martyrs' park.

All the resentment seems to have come to fruition. The darkness of the past seems to have waited for the light one after another.

But why is he so tired ......

It was as if he had been relieved of a heavy burden, lost his purpose, and, like snow-blindness, his eyes and mind were gradually turning blank - the only meaning of his life now was to finish finishing Ciyan Qin's writings.

In addition, the various aspects of this broken matter have been dedicated to deal with, he can no longer manage, and there is no heart to pick up again.

Qingcheng Xie coughing violently, sitting in front of the window, the window sill placed by the tail of the flame was re-glued around the small fire dragon blind box, he touched its flame with a cold hand.

Resin made even, nothing temperature.

The little fire dragon that could really give him a little warmth is no longer there.

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Qingcheng Xie later went to the sealed He residence by himself and stood at the sealed iron gate and looked inside for a long time. It was autumn and the endless summer in the villa courtyard had blossomed to the point of dying, and the large lawn where he and Yu He first met had been left untouched for a while and was already showing its stark fatigue.

Qingcheng Xie was in a trance when he heard someone call out to him, "Dr. Xie."

But when I turned my head, there was no one there.

He went to the school playground again, it was summer vacation, there was not much people on campus, and he was the only one sitting on the bleachers in the large stadium.

He remembered the way Yu He smiled brightly after running a thousand meters in the playground before they broke up.

That's really like a nineteen-year-old boy, chasing the wind in the sun, running past the figure all into a vigorous youth.

" Qingcheng Xie , you come to my competition, I will give you a first place."

He heard his voice again, clearer than when he was in front of the villa, he turned his head sideways, he couldn't see anyone, and when he turned his head to look at the plastic track, he seemed to see Yu He running in a circle.

He ran so hard, as if this would catch up with the company he wanted, the dream.

One lap ...... Two laps ......

He ran wildly with his feet, the most valuable point of young people is that he always have so much heart in, until the lights run out will not let go.

Qingcheng Xie looked at that empty playground, he wanted very much to tell Yu He to stop, not to go forward so foolishly, not to insist on ......

There is no road ahead, Yu He .

The sea is ahead, you do not go ......

You don't want to go.

At some point during the muddle, a janitor approached him and told him that the stadium would be cleared and the campus would not be open at night.

Qingcheng Xie Only then did he realize that it was already dark.

He got a taxi and was supposed to go home, but when the driver asked him where he was going, he slowly said the name of the jazz bar by the Bund.

Qingcheng Xie has never been to a bar by himself in his life.

This is the first time.

He returned to the tavern that seemed to have been transported from Europe a hundred years ago, and sat where he and Yu He had sat before. The jazz band played the same songs day after day, and he listened to them as if the most relaxing day of his life had come back to haunt him.

The old man on stage is singing Love you hate you, ask if you know?

He smiled and listened in the shadow of the wine and lights.

It is strange that he can still laugh. He raised his hand to his face, and the dim light fell into his eyes.

It is strange, he can only see one eye vision is also declining, but how he saw so clearly outside a young man came.

Yu He was thirteen or fourteen years old, with an ID card that didn't belong to him, and he used his height and aura to fool the waiter, sitting down at the bar with ease and familiarity. His eyes shone brightly as he watched the jazz band on stage singing the old familiar songs, smiling at the end of the song and clapping his hands in a gentle manner.

I see you.

Ask if you know ......

I hear you.

Do you know?

The night was getting late, Qingcheng Xie drank the last bit of wine in his glass, he looked up, he saw Yu He that day after his birthday, dressed in formal clothes, smiling and extending his hand to him.

Sir, can I ask you for a dance?

Qingcheng Xie looked at him for a long time, and after a long time, Qingcheng Xie, who had been drinking until his eyes were completely wet and red, whispered to him: "...... I'm sorry, I hurt you... ..."

Sorry ......

I ended up killing you with my own hands.

Do you know?

If you know the future one day, will you still dance this song together?

Sorry ...... Yu He ......

Sorry ......

The voice with a trace of choking, but his head is very dizzy, ears ringing, the trace of fragmented choking, then even he did not hear himself.

He lowered his blurred, moist eyes and raised them again, wanting to see Yu He's gentle smile one more time.

But the surroundings went dark and there was nothing in front of him.

The blackness of a large area.

Only one endless summer fell in the darkness, touching the ground, the flower cluster suddenly shattered, like shattering a good dream that could not return.

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When Qingcheng Xie woke up, she found herself in the intensive care unit of Meiyu Private Hospital.

Slowly, he realized that he had passed out at the Jazz Bar and was taken to the hospital by the kind-hearted citizens. He was sent back to Meiyu in a roundabout way, probably because he could not be admitted to other hospitals in this condition.

Xue Xie was asleep on his bedside, his eyes swollen like a pink walnut because he had cried.

She is now showing her pregnancy, pregnant women need to rest well, but she can't do it, these days, the media has exposed too many things, and some media can not be exposed, she also know the situation from the Wei family and the police.

What she once couldn't understand no matter what, became unbelievably clear in these days.

Her heart ached beyond words, but there was nothing she could do but be by her brother's side as much as she could - she hoped her big brother could still feel the warmth of life from her.

She held his hand night after night since he was sent to the hospital in a coma, and those fingers were cold, just like someone who had died.

Dongheng Wei was distressed and came to persuade her to go to sleep, changing his guard, but she cried.

She clutched Qingcheng Xie's hand, helplessly looking back at Dongheng Wei, she choked up: "How can it not cover the hot ah ...... how can I not cover him ...... "

Qingcheng Xie's body is special, a sick body living in the world, every treatment has to experience a thousand times more pain than chemotherapy, he is completely relying on his own breath to hold on.

Now that breath is gone.

His hot blood, then also and the person who died for him as cold went.

Xue Xie hugged him tightly, resting his forehead on his shoulder, his face was covered with tears: "Brother ......"

Dongheng Wei couldn't persuade her, so she cried and fell asleep on her back by Qingcheng Xie's bed.

When Qingcheng Xie woke up, his throat was dry and he couldn't make a sound. He looked at Xue Xie's sleeping face for a while, then lifted his fingers and touched her hair lightly.

Xue Xie woke up with a start: "...... Brother?!"

There was no one else in the ward, so Qingcheng Xie took a moment and said to Xue Xie, "...... Why are you sleeping here? Where is Dongheng Wei?"

"He went to buy breakfast." Xue Xie wiped his eyes and held Qingcheng Xie's hand, "Brother, how are you? Do you feel better? I'm going to call the doctor for you ......"

She poured out a bunch of stuff like beans.

Qingcheng Xie looked at her, but only said one thing: "You know a lot of things, now." It wasn't even a question.

Xue Xie was dumbfounded at first, then lowered her eyelids and nodded.

She was holding down her emotions, but she didn't hold it down for long, and suddenly she was crying, she fell into Qingcheng Xie's arms, she couldn't stop asking him, "Brother ...... it hurts doesn't it ...... you're very It hurts ...... isn't it ......"

"...... I'm fine."

"You lie ......" Xue Xie paused and suddenly howled. "You lie! I know you are sad because of Yu He's death, I am also ...... I am also sad ah ...... but you can't go on like this ...... you can't go on like this brother ......!"

She cried, tears falling in big globs: "He's gone I know you're in pain ...... you can't even see ...... but ...... but please ...... don't do this anymore ......"

"Stop lying to us and saying it's okay ...... Stop hiding it from us and saying it's okay ...... your body is dying, your organs are failing, I know all about it! I know it all!!!"

Qingcheng Xie stopped talking and looked at her in dismay.

After a while, the light in the only eye that he could still see anything, also gradually dimmed.

"The dean told you that?"

Xue Xie wiped her tears and nodded her head.

Qingcheng Xie was silent for a long time, and finally only gave a light smile at his own pain: "What does it matter?"

He has more than enough in his life, compared to Yu He who has never had anything.

This pain is no longer insufficient to mention in his opinion.

But Xue Xie shuddered, completely disbelieving, and she looked at her brother as if she thought he was crazy: "What is it again? How can it count for anything again? Brother ...... all these years, you have how much pain it ......"

How much did he hurt over the years?

Piecing together the fragmented body back.

Alone, he suffered the pain of his parents' murder, but shielded his sister's eyes from these evils. It was because of his protection that she grew up carefree, healthy and happy, while he endured all the darkness.

It hurts so much to go all the way.

The wife left him.

The teacher walked away.

The disease has been endured for more than twenty years and cannot be told to others.

It was only yesterday that Xue Xie saw Qingcheng Xie's treatment room in Meiyu, and it was after she and Dongheng Wei had learned a lot of things that the old dean finally couldn't resist her pleas and took her there while Qingcheng Xie was still unconscious.

That cold treatment room - cold iron, cold water, restraint belts, metal bed, the only communication with the outside world was the emergency call bell.

Although the dean spoke rn-13, he did not talk to her about the secret of the first emperor, but only vaguely described Qingcheng Xie's mental Ebola disease and the suffering during treatment.

But that was enough. Xue Xie eventually lost her voice in that treatment room, sitting on her knees and bawling her eyes out.

How much does it hurt ...... how much does it hurt him!!!

"Actually, your brother made this decision after the divorce." The dean said, blurring past the concept of the first emperor and saying only to Xue Xie, Qingcheng Xie hoped to find a treatment that would revitalize the mind and delay organ failure.

"Qingcheng Xie did this because he wanted to develop a medicine for Rongbei Qin, and because it was the only way he could have the energy to deliberate and recover the remnants of Ciyan Qin's notes that he had left behind. Those things were very precious medical materials that he knew could have saved many lives, but he didn't take care of them and someone damaged his teacher's last things, and when he told me about it, he said he lived with the guilt all the time."

Xue Xie finally managed to stand up with Dongheng Wei's help and hug.

Despite already being so grief-stricken, she bowed toward the dean and then said, "I'm sorry, Dean ...... I know my brother's income can't support such high treatment costs, and you've done so much for him over the years, this money... . we can all give now, I will definitely--"

Before she finished her sentence, the dean hurriedly waved his hand: "The founder of this hospital is me and old Qin, old Qin died at the time, the hospital is in chaos, encountered operational difficulties, once unable to turn over, it was your brother found me and donated his hundreds of thousands of savings down those years to the hospital. How can I still ask for your money? Where can I put my face?"

Xue Xie was amazed.

"He ...... he ...... that--that then ...... "Her face became whiter and whiter, suddenly realizing why Qingcheng Xie and Ruoqiu Li divorced when Qingcheng Xie gave everything he could to Ruoqiu Li and never said anything bad about Ruoqiu Li, much less let Xue Xie talk about her cheating outside.

When he took the money to donate to Lao Qin's hospital, he was not yet divorced from Ruoqiu Li. And given his character, he would never have concealed the fact that his wife took the money without permission.

Xue Xie blurted out, "Did he come alone at that time?"

"No." The dean said, "He came with his then wife, Ms. Lee. Both of them signed the donation book ......"

Xue Xie was stunned, and tears came to her eyes once again.

For so many years ...... she always thought her brother was afraid of losing face, so he refused to say his wife cheated on him, and the divorce did not recognize his wife as the party at fault. But it turns out that ...... because Qingcheng Xie has never forgotten Ruoqiu Li at that time to support him to do this thing.

"He should not have said too much to her, Mrs. Li only knew that he felt guilty because Beihai Yi's mother had passed the case to Lao Qin through Qingcheng Xie. She also asked me when he went out for a cigarette, asking me if her husband and Lao Qin had a deep friendship. I said no." Dean said, "I have asked her after not regret, if she does not want, completely also do not have to donate this money, she again fumed for a long time, and finally said then donate, it is to do a good thing, she is after all and his husband and wife so many years ......"

The more Xue Xie listens, the more emotionally devastated she becomes.

How did she not expect that year to be like this ......

Ruoqiu Li was not in love with Qingcheng Xie at that time, but Qingcheng Xie did not know that he was very slow in his feelings ...... and Ruoqiu Li, Xue Xie always thought that Ruoqiu Li was greedy to the extreme, cheating and divorcing, and taking away their family The last of the remaining money ...... but she simply did not know that Ruoqiu Li is actually not so bad at heart, she did not set any obstacles for Qingcheng Xie to complete what he wanted to accomplish most at that time.

So many years of savings, she promised him to donate them all.

She did not love him anymore, she complained that he was too wooden and unemotional, she even cheated ......

But people are very complex, the human heart is like a mirror kaleidoscope, there is nothing in this world there are no mistakes in the life of good people, and where there is a good deed has not done evil people.

Ruoqiu Li gave Qingcheng Xie her full support. She knew in her heart that it was the last thing she could do for him as his wife.

I think Qingcheng Xie finally realized the almost guilt-ridden state of mind she was in when she signed the donation agreement.

He is so strong a person, and how embarrassing it should be ......

No one wanted him anymore. One by one, they walked away from him, leaving behind the unsolved cases, the remorse, the guilt, and the pity.

At this moment, Xue Xie hugged Qingcheng Xie, tears kept rolling down: "Brother ...... how much pain you have ...... these twenty years ... ...how much you hurt!"

Qingcheng Xie felt the warmth, but strangely, the warmth did not seem to flow into his heart anymore.

He gently patted Xue Xie's back and a voice came out of his hoarse throat, "I'm fine."

"It doesn't hurt anymore ......"

He didn't lie to her.

His heart had died with Yu He.

And where else would the dead person feel any pain.

When Dongheng Wei came back, Qingcheng Xie had just calmed Xue Xie down and recovered.

Dongheng Wei brought Xue Xie a meal, Qingcheng Xie is not allowed to eat outside, he and Dongheng Wei together, to let Xue Xie drink all the porridge, and then go back to rest. Xue Xie would like to stay here and watch Qingcheng Xie, but her two fists are no match for four hands, especially one of them is her brother.

She just had to sit next to her, red and swollen eyes, and drink all the porridge bit by bit.

Dongheng Wei looked at Xue Xie and then at Qingcheng Xie, and he suddenly said, "Brother Xie, we have something that we want to discuss with you."

Qingcheng Xie : "Go ahead."

Dongheng Wei got up, solemnly: "We ...... we want to take you to the United States to see the doctor, the dean and we said that the state that originally developed rn-13, has the best treatment equipment now, I want to ... ...I want you to do it for Xue Xie as well as for your nephew who is not yet born ......"

He said here, his eyes faintly flushed some red. Dongheng Wei is a very coarse-minded person, rarely has any soft side, but at this moment, he endured the trembling in his voice before he opened his mouth: "...... we want to ...... want to let you live, want to ask you not to give up on yourself."

Xue Xie also raised her head, which she had discussed with Dongheng Wei earlier, but she hadn't had time to say it yet, and she was even worried that she wouldn't be able to open her mouth, and that her voice would shatter to pieces once she did.

And indeed, she swallowed the porridge and opened her mouth three or four times before she barely let out a plea with a crying voice: "Brother ...... let's find a way to live, okay ...... if you go like this, I will be very sad, you know I am very stupid I don't know how to bring up a child, you live ...... we go to cure ...... and then you help me, you teach me how to bring him up, how to help him, how to comfort him ...... you all little by little Teach me little by little, just like you used to bring me up, okay ......"

Qingcheng Xie did not say anything.

Xue Xie raised his hand to cover his eyes, wiping the tears on his eyelashes: "Brother ...... please ......"

"Now that Mom and Dad's case has been solved and Sister Qin is gone, only Grandpa Qin's book needs you to continue to sort it out ...... We'll take our time, okay ...... I can't live without you... ..."

I can't live without you.

Qingcheng Xie's heart suddenly trembled.

In fact, there was already a person who said this to him, and that person embraced him that hard, in the fire, and embraced him with his head in the dust.

Xue Xie : "If you just give up ...... Yu He know, he will also ...... he will also be sad ...... brother ...... you think about Yu He ...... he has given his life for these things, so ...... can you... ...can you not let him know in the spring and feel sad ...... brother ......"

Qingcheng Xie slowly closes his eyes.

He knew in his heart that it wouldn't.

Xue Xie doesn't know the last conversation he had with Yu He, and she doesn't know who has set Yu He in a trap with a heart of stone.

He thought, if there really is another world, then Yu He must also hate him when he sees him again.