Chapter 22: Why don't I go be myself for a while?

Qin Yi was the one who brought Qin Jun to the door to apologise.

Not since he started out in the energy mines and used his money to make connections has he experienced such groveling and subservience.

Tang Family ......

Qin Yi's face twisted for a moment, but the next moment he hid his resentment and whispered to Qin Jun, "Behave yourself later, don't put on a bad face."

Qin Jun was far from his father's kind heart, and when he met Qin Yi's gloomy gaze, the pain in his back, which had been severely beaten on his arrival, was hidden, and he grimaced and squeezed out a smile, but in his heart he muttered that his father was quicker than a book.

He was so unlucky that he had to apologise to his father after he had just cursed Tang Bai, and then he had to apologise to the whole school.

Carrying the Palulu jewellery specially prepared for Tang Bai, Qin Jun reassured himself that his worst fears had been resolved anyway.

With this in mind, the sword of Damocles that had been hanging invisibly over his head disappeared, leaving him with a sense of relief.

What does it matter if he's pretending to be a grandson, he's just bowing down for a moment, and Tang Bai, that little bitch, is now posing as a condescending bitch and will be sleeping with their alpha when the time comes?

Qin Yi rang the doorbell and heard the AI on the door yelling, "No appointments allowed! No entry!"

Qin Yi: "......"

Qin Yi squeezed out a smile at the flashing red camera, " Old Tang, Mrs. Tang, I am Qin Family Qin Yi, and I am here today to bring my ungrateful son to apologise to your love."

The indisputable Qin Jun is also smiling.

The father and son's identical smiling faces appear on the light screen, and Tang Bai takes one look at them and mutters, "Welp - so obnoxiousness really does come from family history."

Grandpa Tang looked at Tang Bai disapprovingly: "It's okay to say such things in front of us, but not in front of them when they come in, which omega family talks like that."

"And the other day at the Federation Military Academy entrance ceremony, you spoke ......" Grandpa Tang, like he didn't know how to describe it, scratched his beard and shook his head sorrowfully, "That's so unrespectful! It was live all over the internet, and I saw you, ah, like you were afraid to marry yourself off."

Tang Bai picked up the small comb she carried with her and combed Grandpa Tang's wrinkled beard twice, softly saying, "Grandpa, don't you know that there are many alpha's confessing their love for your little girl on the confession wall at the Federal Military Academy? Don't worry about me not getting married."

Grandpa Tang, frustrated by Tang Bai, looked away helplessly and clicked on the light computer to let the two men in at the door.

As soon as Qin Yi entered with his gift, he said, "This house smells so good! What kind of delicacies do you eat at Director Tang's house? I envy Mrs. Tang's cooking!"

Mama Tang put down her spoon haughtily, "This is made by my Tang Tang."

Qin Yi exclaimed, "That Mr. Tang has inherited Mrs. Tang's excellent skills. My wife said that Mrs. Tang's skills are excellent.

Tang Bai listened to Qin Jun's rainbow farts with a blank expression, without any inner turmoil and even a little bit of laughter.

Really, these old straight A's who are older can't get away from marrying an omega, as if the value of an omega's life can't be separated from marriage.

"My wife made these little biscuits herself, and she says the best biscuit maker is still Mrs Tang." Qin Yi smiled humbly, "I wish my wife could learn from Mrs Tang sometime, whether it's cooking or parenting."

Mama Tang said pleasantly, "Learning is not necessary, I don't have the time or energy to teach people."

Qin Jun was stuck for a moment. All these years, people have been carrying him in a palanquin, and as long as he was willing to bow his head, others would let him down, and there was no one like Mama Tang who was so gentle that he could not get down.

Just a well-married omega who has been a Tang Family matriarch all these years and really thinks she's something to be reckoned with.

Qin Yi was full of resentment, but he said, "Madam Tang is right, time is money for us.

Mama Tang said softly, "No, what I mean is that teaching is not just for omega's, a father is an integral responsibility in the development of a child. It is better to ask for help than to ask for help. As an alpha father, Mr Chin should set an example by teaching your children what duty and responsibility, respect and understanding are, which is the source of good family learning."

Tang Bai didn't even react to the first part of the story, but when she heard the words "family history" she almost laughed out loud.

Mother and son look at each other heartily, and good family roots flow through them to pass on.

Qin Yi couldn't hold up his head after being lectured by Mama Tang, so he had to smile stiffly and said, "Madam Tang is right, it's because I'm not good at teaching my son." What do you mean by leading by example? This was a scolding of him as a father who had no responsibility and did not know how to respect and understand omega, which was why he had ruined his son's upbringing!

Qin Yi, who was furious, slapped Qin Jun on the back, "Bastard, apologize now!" It's all this fool's fault! Making him look bad!

Qin Jun staggered from the blow, bent over in pain and repeated the bowing and apologising part once more, and he could imagine what a disdainful face Tang Bai had.

Recalling the humiliating history of the last time he bowed and apologised in front of the whole school and even the whole Star, new hatred and old hatred rushed to his mind and the blood of shame and anger went straight to his head as he rasped, " Tang Bai, I'm sorry, I was wrong."

Tang Bai raised her little hand in a fake way and waved at Qin Jun like a puppy, saying sweetly, "You're bowing in the wrong direction, I'm here."

Qin Jun: "......"

Qin Jun was about to endure the humiliation of bowing in a different direction when the snowball crouched near Qin Jun slowly got up and headed towards Tang Bai who was waving.

When Qin Jun lowered his head, he was right in front of the dog.

Qin Jun: "............"

Qin Jun's teeth were almost gritted.

Snowball took one look at the strange guest, withdrew his gaze in disgust and jumped back onto Mama Tang's lap.

Mama Tang caressed the snowball a little and said in a light tone, "My boy has always been spoiled and we have never had to say a serious word to him since he was a child.

The snowball followed with a loud "woof" and Mama Tang laughed softly, "I think the dog understands that too."

Qin Jun's father immediately gave Qin Jun a heavy smack, "Dog, do you understand!"

Qin Jun: "......"

Qin Jun: "Got it ......"

Qin's father compensated with a smile, "If this brat dares to provoke Mr. Tang again, I promise to break his legs and make him crawl as far as he can without getting in Madam's way."

Mama Tang looked at Qin Jun for a moment and said softly, "Every omega is the heart and soul of its parents, I hope Mr. Qin will not mess with innocent omegas in the future."

Qin Yi said he was sure, but when he saw that Mama Tang had easily passed the hurdle, he looked at Grandpa Tang with a desire to speak.

After all, an omega is an omega, and only when the alpha himself says he will not pursue the matter can Qin Yi put his heart back into his stomach.

"Take the energy crystals back." Grandpa Tang looked at the box of high quality energy crystals that Qin Jun had brought with him and refused indifferently.

If Grandpa Tang did not relent, his trip would be a waste of time.

" Old Tang, I heard that the Weapons Research Institute needs top quality energy crystals, these are all handpicked by me, the quality is much better than the goods on the market!" He opened the lid and the box full of shining energy crystals almost blinded Tang Bai's eyes.

But the thought that Qin Family had made its fortune by squeezing people from the slums made Tang Bai feel that these immaculate white energy crystals were stained with blood.

Grandpa Tang didn't even look at the box of rare and rare energy crystals, and said slowly: "Master Qin Family doesn't need to get so excited, it's just a fight between children, it won't affect the business."

Qin Yi looked pleased when he heard Grandpa Tang continue, "Only if you can really start to reflect on this matter and stop doing it."

His weather-beaten face was calm and collected, as if he were a very nice old man next door, but Qin Yi felt a pressure that was hard to describe. There was no place to hide!

A cold sweat broke out behind his back, Qin Yi unconsciously put on a pleasing tone and said, " Old Tang, this energy crystal will be considered as tuition for this kid in my family to teach ......"

"Take it back."

Qin's father's smile froze for a moment, but he quickly returned to his nodding and nodding state and thanked him again before tugging Qin Jun away.

Tang Bai glances at the latest Palulu brooch left by Qin Family and his son on the table, "Well, it's still one of my aesthetic blind spots."

Mama Tang nods along, "It's a straight-A aesthetic at first glance."

The old straight A Grandpa Tang who thought the style was pretty good: "......"

After he finished his apology, Tang Bai put a quail egg from the Buddha's jumping wall in the dog's bowl and said to Snowball with a smile, "That was a good match just now, brother didn't love you for nothing!"

Snowball woofed twice in delight.

Tang Bai replaced the male chopsticks and happily served Mama Tang and Grandpa Tang, "And my dearest mum and grandpa, they speak so well, I still need to learn more from you!"

"You're the only one who's poor." Mama Tang said.

"Yes, yes, yes, I'm a poor talker, but Qin Jun is a bad talker! You didn't see that Qin Jun apologised with a grimace, not even a sincere apology." Tang Bai followed Qin Xu's example and then he was bounced on the head by Mama Tang.

"No learning."

Tang Bai covered her head and shouted to Grandpa Tang, "Grandpa~!"

Grandpa Tang nodded solemnly, "Don't skim, omega be omega."

Here we go again here we go again.

Tang Bai sticks his tongue out at Snowball, who buries his head in his mouth and follows slightly, slightly, silly.

Seeing Tang Bai's heartless look, Grandpa Tang sighed in his heart, he hesitated for a moment, but said, "Tang Tang, you can forget about Qin Jun, Qin Yi got someone to pay off the victim at the time, and the boy agreed to help with the perjury."

Tang Bai, who had been playing with the snowball, froze, Tang Bai looked up and repeated with wide eyes, " Qin Yi paid off the victim?"

Regarding Qin Jun's rape of the omega, Tang Bai never contacted the omega because he didn't want to disturb her life.

The question of whether or not to use the rape to bring down Qin Jun was also something Tang Bai struggled with for a long time.

If Qin Jun were to be sued, it would inevitably reveal the omega's personal information, and as an omega, Tang Bai knows better than anyone else how much importance the omega places on chastity.

He also knows better than anyone how fragile the omega's mental capacity is.

It is a society where omega's are violated time and again, and instead of being tortured to death by their rapists, those omega's choose to kill themselves when they can't stand the sight of the deviant.

Qin Family, the culprit, has the nerve to bother the other side and that omega ...... was really bought off.

"Why ......" Amber eyes flashed with confusion as he murmured, "Is it because of the money? Qin Family If I take money to keep quiet, I'll pay double."

" Tang Tang, it's not about the money." Grandpa Tang put it succinctly, "The omega has someone to talk to and the other person doesn't know he's been raped."

Tang Bai's fingers twitched nervously as he remembered the broken look on that video of the omega being dragged away, the heartbreaking cries for help, the swollen cheeks being slapped, and the final desperate stare.

Grandpa Tang sighed and intoned, "No alpha can accept that his wife has been defiled."

Sullying.

An atrocity sufficient to destroy an omega at a time turns out to symbolize only impure defilement in the mouth of an alpha.

Unclean, defiled.

Why does no one say Qin Jun is unclean, no one says Qin Jun is filthy as hell, no one says an alpha like Qin Jun cannot find a mate?

"Now that he has managed to find an alpha he can marry and is ready to come out of the shadows and start a new life, if this comes to light, not only will this alpha he is dating not want him, but the other alpha's around him despise him too."

"As far as I know, Qin Family offered a good deal of compensation and it's no surprise he compromised ......"

Why?

Why should the victim be blamed when it is clear that Qin Jun is at fault?

Why does Qin Jun not have to be punished when it is obvious that he has made a mistake?

Why is Qin Jun still alive in this world when he is the one who made the mistake?

Why?

Tang Bai thought quietly in his mind as he suddenly felt silence all around him, and the fishy water wrapped around him as if to sink him into the infinite darkness of the sea.

The air was so thin and the sea so cold that it made it difficult for him to even breathe. He tried to speak, but the moment he opened his mouth, countless salty waters poured in, so cold, so sickening, waters that had washed over who knows how many dirty alpha bodies, waters that had gathered the tears of who knows how many omega's, poured silently into his body, from his trachea, his cochlea, his oesophagus spreading unceasingly, all the way to his stomach.

Tang Bai's face was white as she whispered, "But it wasn't his fault."

Yeah, it's not his fault ......

What did he do wrong?

What did he do wrong?

"He didn't protect his virginity, and that's his fault. And it has happened, it doesn't matter who is right or who is wrong, he has been spoiled and he has to accept the strange looks." Grandpa Tang originally didn't want to tell the naked truth, but when he thought of Tang Bai going to the slums with an alpha he had just met, he couldn't help but say, "As an omega, you have to protect yourself, don't be gullible, don't go to places you shouldn't, if you stay honestly at home and go out with your family, this simply This won't happen ......"

I have heard similar words countless times ringing in my ears again, and every time I read such news and hear such tragedies, there are visible and invisible people everywhere pointing fingers, teaching and restraining.

Sounds that exist on all sides, sounds that you can't escape even if you cover your ears, sounds that you eventually become accustomed to and even agree with.

The suffocating waters wrapped around him like an invisible membrane, and he listened quietly to his grandfather, who should have remained silent, as he had done countless times before in calm compromise.

Once upon a time he had heard of countless such things, there were really too many of them, and the omega victims were too pathetic, even worse than the one raped by Qin Jun, who had sharp objects inserted into their lower bodies, their nipples cut off with knives and their skin carved with insulting words like " tramp" ......

They even died after suffering much abuse, being dumped in the wild, sunk at the bottom of a lake, or even thrown on the main road like a piece of rubbish.

And this is the time when the school will tell them that it is dangerous outside the school and you should not leave the school, and the family will tell them that it is dangerous outside the home and you should not leave the home.

So little by little the omega's space for survival becomes smaller and they cower like quails in the circle that society has drawn for them.

Tang Bai stands obediently in the circle, and if there are no accidents, he will stay in the circle until the end of his days, born in the circle, breeding in the circle and dying in the circle.

This is an omega ......

The life of a swine.

Yes, bred from birth to grow up according to society's strict requirements, knowing only to eat, drink and be merry every day, with no aspirations to contribute everything to society's fertility rate when it is long enough to be penned.

Every omega is encouraged to have more children; having ten earns you the honor of being a heroic mother, and the more you have, the more honorable you are. Most omegas start getting pregnant and having babies and getting pregnant from the moment they get married ...... until they are unable to have children themselves.

Tang Bai's mother was in poor health and had problems with her uterus, so she had to fight for half her life to have Tang Bai, and she might not be able to save her life if she had another one. She wanted Tang Bai to have an alpha son, so she wanted Tang Bai to have an alpha son.

Mother says the best life for an omega is to marry a good alpha and have a whole lot of children.

My father said that omega's need to learn to look at alpha and tell what is good alpha so that they don't meet someone who is not.

Grandpa said to be a virtuous, dignified and generous omega, obedient to parents, loving to children and considerate to her husband.

Countless people are telling Tang Bai what it takes to be a good omega, telling Tang Bai that this is the only way to be happy and joyful.

原本...... Originally Tang Bai should have stayed silent like this because it has always been like this in this society with all these omega's.

But, why, why is it that Xie Ruhang from the book is the one that comes to his mind at this moment?

The dark-haired, dark-eyed omega leapt from his battle armour, which was covered in smoke and blood, and his face was pale, but his eyes were amazingly bright.

He returns in blood to bring victory to the Federation once more, but he learns that the omega brother of one of his soldiers has been raped by a nobleman.

The omega would not speak out, would not tell anyone, just wanted to die quietly. The omega cried and begged him not to make a big deal out of it, saying that the nobleman was so powerful that he would not get a substantial punishment, saying that he was a defiled person and not worth dirtying the marshal's future.

So Xie Ruhang walked out calmly, his face still white with misery, his palms trembling slightly as his already exhausted body held the sword.

With sword in hand, he walked towards the procession of nobles congratulating him and went up to the nobleman who had raped his ministry's kinsman.

Brilliant daylight penetrates the clouds and converges into countless pillars of light that penetrate this filthy human world.

Xie Ruhang raised his sword and plunged it calmly, almost coldly, into the nobleman's chest, the sharp blade piercing layer after layer of expensive, flamboyant clothing, piercing the skin fed by wine and flesh, piercing the heart surrounded by ribs -

The blood suddenly spurted out, blossoming in a bright red mist in the brilliant daylight, splashing onto Xie Ruhang's pale face.

Straddling time and space, the dark phoenix eyes seem to be gazing silently at Tang Bai.

Some things were not meant to be looked at deeply, not to be thought about in detail, and if he did not look at anything, did not listen, did not think, then perhaps he would not have discovered the layer of falsehood that had been covering him and could be pierced with a single reach.

With amber eyes looking at her grandfather, who was still preaching, and her mother, who was absently fiddling with a flowering branch, Tang Bai suddenly became a little breathless, and the seawater that filled her stomach sac seemed to burn, from cold water to a blazing fire that burned with pain.

He seems to finally understand why Xie Ruhang in the book is often so angry, it's the anger of cynicism, the anger of rage, the anger of changing the world ......

In a world of prejudice and ignorance, some pioneer has to stand up and use his body as a torch to be the only light.

But only a little light is not enough; only that little light cannot shine through the darkness of the world.

From ancient times to the present, revolutions have required the bloodshed of those who died, as did the Commonwealth's break from imperial rule, and as should the AO's struggle for affirmative action.

It is not enough to have one martyr, there needs to be a second and a third ...... More people are needed to sacrifice, to sacrifice before and after, to burn their lives to illuminate this darkness, even if each one is just an insignificant flower flame, but one day the fire of a star will start a prairie fire.

For so many years, so many years he has lived according to the gaze of others, he has pretended to be deaf, he has deceived himself, he has a shiny exterior, but only Tang Bai himself knows that he is an empty shell who has given up what he loves most in order to be a good omega in the traditional sense.

He remembers how his grandfather taught him as a child, and how the whole family would look at him whenever he solved a puzzle -

It was a proud, admiring, proud, pleased gaze, like looking at a sparkling jewel.

In a braggadocious tone, Grandpa would introduce his old friend, "My grandson, the genius of weapons making, follows me."

That proud and proud and spirited look, but then what happened, when he was six years old and divided, he never saw such a look on his grandfather's face again.

A violent argument broke out in the family that day, and Grandpa locked himself in the house, alone for a day and a night, and when he came out, everything changed.

He could no longer study mechanics under his grandfather, he could no longer own mech toys, he could no longer bask in that proud and proud gaze.

And all this only because ...... He's an omega.

He kept trying to convince himself and suppress himself, telling himself that he was also happy with such a life, carefree, eating and drinking, marrying a good alpha later, having a bunch of children, no need to struggle and work hard, this is the life that many people dream of.

But is this the life he wants?

Married to an alpha who is about as good as Gu Tunan, maybe not as good, and keeps having babies and babies and babies.

Tang Bai could hypnotise herself once upon a time, all omega's come through that way, always have, all of them.

But ah ......

Xie Ruhang is not.

He lived with such reckless abandon, growing wild and radiant, that dazzling light, O presence for which he shed tears.

If the light had not been so bright, he might not have seen his own cowardice; he was a bred canary, used to the comfort of a brocade life, uncomfortable with the status quo, but afraid of risk.

He was always so retreating, weak, hypocritical and stupid that without Xie Ruhang he would have been trapped in this delicate cage for the rest of his life.

But then Xie Ruhang appeared.

Xie Ruhang was the greatest change in his life, like a star cast into stagnant water, ripple after ripple, circle after circle, the glittering star illuminating jewels sunk deep in the muck.

Just as the leaf has to stretch hard from its painful curl, so man has to break free from the unthinking obscurity that is living.

Xie Ruhang, who swung his sword at his enemy, once again came to Tang Bai's mind, his face bright red with blood, so bright that it looked like a never-ending fire, and the dark phoenix eyes gazing silently at him in the shadow of the sword -

If the world is a barrier that stands in the way, then thrust a sword through it.

If you know that your heart is not in it, if you know that you will definitely regret it in the future, if it is too late for everything, then why not give it a go?

If everyone lives in a book and has their own plot line, then why must the plot follow the expectations of others when it is clearly my life and all the sorrows and ups and downs can be written by me - as long as I am willing to pay the price for it.

If I would give anything for it, then I ...... Why don't I go and be myself for a while?

Tang Bai lifted his head, as if he heard the sound of a flame buried in his heart rekindle, the faint flower cluster burning, burning, burning in the endless waters, threatening to go out at any moment, burning him all over, burning his nose so sorely that he had to use all his strength to shield that small flame from being doused, and for that he was bound to endure the pain of being licked by the flames.

"Grandpa, Mum, if I was raped by Qin Jun, would you give me a slap on the wrist?"

Mama Tang: "How dare he!!!"

Grandpa Tang frowned, "Why would I hit you?"

"Why don't you beat me? I was the one who didn't keep my virginity safe, how could I have been violated if I had stayed at home all my life?"

Mama Tang senses a soft but aggressive edge in Tang Bai's words, and she subconsciously looks at Grandpa Tang, who looks slightly puzzled.

"And no, there are some omega in the slums that even if you stay at home, there are thugs who break in and as long as they have evil in their hearts, there is nowhere to run, no matter where you are."

Tang Bai said softly, "Grandpa, mum, you say omega should protect themselves, but why does everyone have to let omega to protect themselves?"

"Don't those alpha's have parents? Didn't anyone tell them not to violate omega?"

"The physicality of omega and alpha is worlds apart, and when it comes to things like rape, it's hard for us to fight back and escape. Defensive techniques? The vast majority of self-defence techniques are useless in the face of absolute strength suppression. Pepper spray? That kind of stuff takes time to pull out of a bag, and in a hurry we might not even be able to aim it at the abuser's face."

Tang Bai took his portable energy gun from his waist, "It's the only weapon that can do damage to alpha."

"But ordinary omega's don't have access to such weapons at all, do they?"

Grandpa Tang breathed a sigh of relief and looked at Tang Bai, whose eyes were drenched in tears, as he placed the gun on the table, a diamond-studded firearm so magnificent it was ridiculous.

Tang Bai's heart was clearly swollen, but his eyes only shed two lines of tears.

"All they have access to is the doctrine of chastity, a secondary victimisation from a society whose parents will blame them for their weak sense of self-preservation but never think about whether they have taught their omega children what to do in such situations, whose husbands will only point the finger at their wives but dare not judge their sinful kind! " Tang Bai suddenly raised his voice, his face flushed, his eyes red, his gaze burning at his grandfather and mother.

No one answered.

The living room was silent, except for Tang Bai's suddenly soft voice, "It's okay, I'll do it."

In front of Grandpa Tang, Tang Bai walks to Grandpa Tang's exclusive weapons research room, where he stands in the doorway and reaches for the combination lock.

After a long time, Tang Bai slowly entered the numbers of her childhood with trembling fingertips.

Then ......

The door opened.