Chapter 27: Don't hold hands

Lu Xun watched as Ye Yao stood up and walked with the beautiful dancer to the open space a few steps away.

Ye Yao holds the dancer's fingers in a gentleman's grip as beautiful lyrical music plays and the dancer begins to spin and jump.

she opens her arms and spins outwards, her skirt flying. After spinning until both arms are taut in a straight line, she starts spinning towards Ye Yao again and finally pretends to lean into Ye Yao's arms.

For all intents and purposes, this interactive dance with strangers is not overly intimate; the dancers appear to be leaning into the arms of the guests as they spin inwards, but that is only a misalignment and they don't actually lean in, with some distance between them.

From Lu Xun's point of view, he cannot see the empty distance between them, only the dancers' eyes closed and their faces smiling.

Lu Xun's hand shakes slightly as he holds the chopsticks, not out of fear but out of anger.

How can anyone lie in Ye Yao's arms and laugh so happily?

What does this mean, this girl also has a crush on Ye Yao, and Ye Yao is in love with his?

What about him? He was the one who had happily asked Ye Yao to come to dinner with him, and now he was a third party, a redundant light bulb?

It was clear that he came first.

Lu Xun rationally knows that it's rude to rush up and interrupt someone's dance, but who can be rational in this situation?

Lu Xun jerked to his feet, his face extremely frightened. The table was shaken by his impact, and the ceramic dinner plate set on top clicked with a clatter.

Ye Yao turns his head at the sound of movement and gives Lu Xun a light glance.

The glance was not strong, nor did it carry anything resembling a threatening emotion, simply to see what Lu Xun was doing, yet it was a glance that easily subdued Lu Xun.

Lu Xun thought of a problem.

He rushed straight up to interrupt the dance and pull Ye Yao away, he was happy but Ye Yao would have been embarrassed.

Just like a university student being forcibly removed by his parents from an Internet cafe, it can be said to be extremely demoralising to a person's self-esteem, and perhaps after this time Ye Yao will be angry with him and won't care about him.

What could he do, he could not lock Ye Yao in the golden house and use coercion to keep Ye Yao out if he did not want to make up with him?

It was illegal to restrict someone's personal freedom, and Ye Yao happened to be a law student, so although Ye Yao probably wouldn't have sent him in himself out of personal friendship, Ye Yao hated people who broke the law, and he couldn't let Ye Yao hate him.

Lu Xun suppressed the anger in his heart and slowly and stiffly sat down a little more.

After Lu Xun had waited for years, the dance interaction was finally over and Ye Yao returned to him.

Lu Xun still couldn't quite control his temper and grimly said, "Oh, having fun dancing?"

"It's okay." Ye Yao wiped off the smell of perfume left on his hands with a wet tissue, "They interacted quite well."

The sizing is also quite appropriate and does not make him feel uncomfortable.

Lu Xun's expression is hard to see and out of control. He tries a gentle smile, but the end result is similar to that of a widower who has run away from his wife.

Anyone can see that he is not happy, Ye Yao said helplessly, "You ...... don't get upset, you go and dance one too? We'll each dance once, fair enough."

From a friend's point of view, he didn't do anything wrong to Lu Xun, did he? But I have to say, Lu Xun is really possessive of his friends.

"What kind of a man do you take me for!" Lu Xun, even more furious and desperate to vent his anger, furiously picked up his knife and fork, dragged it across the table to a steak and cut it into pieces like an enemy.

Ye Yao didn't want Lu Xun to get angry either, so he thought for a moment and asked, "Why are you so angry that I left you alone to go play?"

"So Brother Ye knows, too," Lu Xun's eyes were full of anger and sorrow, "that you are out spending your time, and I am there all alone and miserable, heh, like a cabbage."

"......" Ye Yao asks directly, "How can I be happy when the jump is already done?"

Lu Xun slices his steak in silence, cutting it to a size suitable for the mouth, revealing the tender red meat inside.

He actually prefers the steak medium rare, but Ye Yao likes it seven, so he ordered the seven.

After Ye Yao got together with that girl, would Ye Yao's taste be taken into account when ordering food?

After finishing cutting all the steaks, Lu Xun quieted down and suddenly spoke after a long silence, "...... you like her?"

Ye Yao cried and laughed: "No, I simply wanted to experience the special activities here. They're all veiled, so you can't see their faces."

Lu Xun's eyes rolled up, he was a little happier, he picked up a piece of cut steak with his fork and handed it to Ye Yao's mouth.

"I'll feed you." Lu Xun said.

Ye Yao: "......"

"You wouldn't be willing to dance with a stranger in public or eat what I feed you, would you?" Lu Xun said grimly.

It was true that Ye Yao didn't want to eat much, although it wasn't like they hadn't done it before, but it was different now, he used to be a straight man and now he wasn't. Now that he was taking a bite of what Lu Xun was feeding him, he felt a strange sense of being under Lu Xun's control.

If he refuses, Lu Xun will ask why he could do it before but not now.

Ye Yao thought for a moment, reached his hand up to the table and spread it out, saying tentatively, "Shall I feed you?"

But Lu Xun, with such a debonair personality, won't necessarily want to bow down and eat from his hand ......

Before Ye Yao could finish his thought, Lu Xun, who heard the words, froze and then shoved the fork into his hand with a flourish.

"That would be embarrassing and tiring for you." Lu Xun said happily, "Then it will be hard for Brother Ye, so you can fork whatever you want."

Ye Yao: "......"

Another miscalculation.

Ye Yao feeds the forked steak into Lu Xun's mouth, and Lu Xun bows his head, half reluctantly, and takes a bite from the fork.

He was genuinely happy, sitting upright with a strange smile on his face. Ye Yao couldn't help but think that if they were all dogs, Lu Xun's tail would be wagging so hard it could spiral into the sky by now.

Is it so much fun to interact with your friends? But he was quite happy too.

Ye Yao softened his eyebrows and forked Lu Xun something else to his liking, and after feeding him a few times, Lu Xun said, "You eat too, don't let me eat alone."

Ye Yao thought Lu Xun had a point, so he took a bite for himself and gave another to Lu Xun.

Lu Xun watched as the same fork went into Ye Yao's mouth and then into his again.

Lu Xun's tongue licked at the fork, swirling the juices away from the food on it and squinting contentedly.

Surely he is the only one who can do that with Ye Yao, right? If you are a good brother, you can eat what the other has eaten and drink what the other has drunk.

There's also the face that doesn't change to eat each other's spit.

*

Lu Xun was relieved to know that Ye Yao had no interest in anyone else and had a lovely meal with Ye Yao.

As they walked back to school, in the cold, quiet streets of the campus, Lu Xun went to take Ye Yao's hand and tucked it into his pocket to keep it warm.

Ye Yao did not object at first, but after a few minutes, Ye Yao spoke seriously: "I don't think this is right."

"?" Lu Xun wondered, "What's wrong, you don't like the size of this pocket? I'll make do for now, next time I won't wear this one."

"...... is not." Ye Yao delivers the planned line, "I don't think it's right for two boys to hold hands, it's weird."

Lu Xun was not impressed: "Where did you read that strange saying? It's not weird at all, we can hold hands whenever we want, and no one says it's weird when so many female friends hold hands with each other every day."

Lu Xun's pockets are warm and inviting, a warmth that is easy to be attached to. Ye Yao's fingers move, looking for a gap from which to pull his hand out.

Ye Yao said lightly, "Didn't see anything from anywhere else, it was me who suddenly didn't feel right. Your hands are big and hard, they're the hands of a boy."

Lu Xun was baffled: "What else? Congratulate you on finally finding out I'm a guy after all those years of holding?"

Ye Yao turned his head to look at Lu Xun and said seriously, "After what happened today, I think I should hold a girl's hand, do you understand what I mean?"

After today, he came into contact with a girl's hand and understood that he wanted to hold a girl's hand, not a boy's.

The wind whistled and the heat in my pockets disappeared in an instant.

Lu Xun stops in his tracks.

A faint fury covered his hard face and he laughed, trying to cover it with a joke: "I don't understand, what you're saying, I'm deaf."

Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun's expression carefully and affirmed, "You already understand, so from now on, don't just hold my hand, right?"

*

In the dormitory.

Ye Yao went to take a shower, while Lu Xun frantically sent messages to harass his dog-headed mentor, Lu Ming.

Unlike him, who has been single for 20 years, Lu Ming has had girlfriends and is not only a gay expert, but also has much more experience in relationships than him.

After Lu Xun sent the word [In?] 20 or 30 times with no expression, the dog-headed soldier finally rolled out.

[I'm playing a game ...... Canyon is swamped with your messages!

Lu Xun didn't bother to talk to him and asked: [How do you kill a relationship that hasn't even had time to break ground?

Lu Ming over there was shocked, thinking that Lu Xun had finally realised he wasn't straight anymore? But the reaction to finding out he wasn't straight was to kill the relationship? No way... to flirt and break it off at the drop of a hat is too desperate.

Lu Ming typed: [Do you want ...... to kill this relationship?

Lu Xun was impatient: [What do I have to give up? Cut the crap, is there a direct and quick way?

Lu Ming didn't understand why he was asked this question: [If you really want to break it off, why don't you just move out of the dormitory and not see him as often?

What the hell?

Lu Xun frowned at this sentence several times, then reacted and typed angrily, already in a bad mood: [What's in your head is rice paste? How could I possibly break up with Ye Yao! My relationship with him is going to grow into a huge tree!

Lu Ming looked stunned: [So what are you trying to strangle?

Lu Xun: [I suspect Ye Yao is getting the hang of it and wants to fall in love with a girl].

Lu Ming: [......]

So it's Ye Yao's desire to fall in love with a girl that's being killed?

Fuck, Lu Xun sure isn't straight!

Lu Ming snapped angrily: [What I hate most in my life is when a faggot tries to bend a straight man!

[What's wrong with straight men wanting to fall in love with girls, what do you care! I'm blocked for now! No need to call me again!

Lu Xun went to poke again, but Lu Ming there really didn't reply to him.

Lu Xun :"......"

You're insane! Where's the faggot to bend a straight man!

Isn't it normal for someone to not want his best friend to fall in love and leave him behind? And he just wants Ye Yao to understand for the time being that a relationship is better than developing a friendship with him. A relationship takes a lot of energy and he gives Ye Yao more help than a girlfriend, right?

He can take care of Ye Yao's food, clothing and accommodation so that Ye Yao can concentrate on his studies. If anyone else did this, Ye Yao would have been called out for not being in love but looking for a babysitter. So what's wrong with being with him and contributing to the development of our country?

Damn!

Ye Yao comes out of the bathroom after a shower to see Lu Xun sitting sickly at his desk, not looking in the best of moods.

Lu Xun has been in a very bad mood since he told his on the way back that he didn't want to hold hands anymore.

Ye Yao understands that if he were still straight, he would have been more than a little disappointed that Lu Xun suddenly showed interest in other girls one day and had less contact with him as a result.

Ye Yao wants to be normal and ordinary friends with Lu Xun, and knows that he can't just be distant. After giving a stick, he needs to give a candy, otherwise Lu Xun will hit bottom and it will be more trouble to force a hand.

"Lu Xun ," Ye Yao said out loud, "look at me."

Lu Xun looks up and over, and his eyes light up.

Ye Yao was wearing the pink jumper he had knitted, freshly bathed and his cheeks slightly flushed from the hot water.

Now Ye Yao is a hundred times sweeter than Strawberry Daifuku, Lu Xun thought to himself.

Lu Xun rises from his chair to greet the sweet looking Ye Yao as he walks up to him.

Because Lu Xun is a daily cuddler, he knows Ye Yao's size and this dress fits Ye Yao perfectly.

Ye Yao Yao touched the jumper on his body and said with a smile, "It's very comfortable, thank you for the gift, it was hard work."

"What's wrong with that," Lu Xun said softly as he watched Ye Yao wearing his handmade clothes, "if you like it, I'll make it for you every year."

Ye Yao smiled helplessly, "Then we'll have to put up a big wardrobe for the clothes you knit every year."

Who will Ye Yao live with in the room with the large wardrobe in the future?

Lu Xun's heart was filled with an unexplained fear, and with a slight movement in his throat, he leaned down and said to Ye Yao in a mute voice, "Can I have a hug?"

Ye Yao thought about it and opened his arms to give Lu Xun a friendly hug.

Lu Xun wrapped his arms around the person in his arms and buried his head in Ye Yao's shoulder and neck, desperately trying to suck in his favourite scent to suppress the indefinable fear in his heart.

Ye Yao is in his arms now, and he will do everything he can to keep Ye Yao by his side in the future.

Ye Yao patted Lu Xun's back and said soothingly, "Come on, why are you so downhearted? People who don't know think I've done something to you, but you're the one who let me hold your hand less. We'll be friends for many years to come."

Lu Xun was gradually calmed down, he let go of Ye Yao for a moment, looked at the chair behind him, then at Ye Yao, and suddenly had an idea.

Lu Xun sat down on a chair, then patted his lap and said to Ye Yao, "Sit down, I'll talk to you, it's been a long time since we've talked to each other."

Ye Yao sitting on his lap, talking to him face to face, the scene is just too good!

Ye Yao: "...... It's the weekend, Xiao Pang and Wen Ke are out playing games and you're in the dorm?"

"Come on." Lu Xun urges, patting his long legs.

Ye Yao refused without hesitation, "No, who's going to sit on your legs if you don't have a chair? If you really want to say something to me, I'll go and bring the chair over."

Lu Xun took Ye Yao by the wrist to stop him from leaving: "You don't want to sit on a cold chair instead of a bouncy human sofa? There's no need to compare the best of all worlds Brother Ye, it's really my family's best."

"......" Ye Yao of course couldn't sit face to face on Lu Xun's lap, he thought of a very unethical, but instantly break the now sticky atmosphere excuse, "No, I'm afraid there are needles sticking me. "

Lu Xun look at Ye Yao: "......"

Lu Xun looks down at himself again: "......"

There was silence inside the air.

Ye Yao shook off Lu Xun's hand and ran away, only to be stopped by Lu Xun who caught up with him.

Lu Xun laughed: "Good Ye Yao, twenty centimetres is not enough for you, is it?"

"Huh." Ye Yao smiled calmly, "It's not bad, what's the point of showing off to me, look you've been single for twenty years."

Lu Xun was so angry with the man he was angry with that he couldn't hit him and couldn't scold him, so in the end Lu Xun was so hot and dizzy that he put one hand on Ye Yao's waist and with the other hand he gave Ye Yao's buttocks a few strokes, the least likely place to hurt.

"See if you dare to laugh at me next time!" Lu Xun muttered.

Ye Yao is wearing pajama trousers, which are not thick, and he clearly senses the temperature of Lu Xun's palm, which is hot.

Ye Yao: "???"

Lu Xun looked back and realised what he had done, and his movements and expression froze.

"Why don't you take your hands off?" Ye Yao scolded in a low voice.

"Ohhhhhhh." Lu Xun let go of his hand and watched Ye Yao's ears flush as he climbed onto the bed.

Lu Xun unconsciously squeezed his fingers, which had just touched Ye Yao's, as if a touch of softness still remained on them.

Lu Xun sits in his chair for a while, then staggers drunkenly to do the washing up.

He saw Ye Yao's most intimate clothes soaking in the basin at the sink. Ye Yao was probably going to wash them, but was so excited by him that he forgot about it and went straight to bed.

It doesn't matter, he can help Ye Yao wash it.

The young master Lu, who will be worth over a hundred billion dollars, had his hands covered in foam as he diligently washed Ye Yao's most intimate clothes, and as he did so, he couldn't help but smile.

Ye Yao is really nice. It's nice to help Ye Yao with his laundry.