Chapter 5: He's divorced

Qingcheng Xie didn't seem to want to say anything more to Yu He and just asked, " Xue Xie didn't tell you?"

"No."

"Then she probably thinks it's a private matter for me."

Yu He was quiet for a while: "Are you and Ruoqiu Li inappropriate?"

Ruoqiu Li is the name of Qingcheng Xie's ex-wife.

Yu He was very impressed with the woman who had tied the knot with Qingcheng Xie and thought there was something wrong with her that she could go to the grave of marriage with a fatherly and cold man like Qingcheng Xie.

In his mind, Qingcheng Xie seemed to have no desire, and should be sitting at his desk in a neat white lab coat, with a voluminous bookshelf behind him and the smell of cold, sober medicine on his body.

Yu He found it hard to believe that Qingcheng Xie would love someone, and even harder to believe that anyone would love Qingcheng Xie.

But Dr. Xie did get married.

He still remembers the day of the wedding, he went to follow his mother's request to pay his share of the money, he went casually, even before he changed out of his school uniform. The driver drove him to the hotel, and he entered the hotel with his school bag on one shoulder, stepping on his white sneakers, and his hands in the pockets of his school uniform sweatpants.

Qingcheng Xie is there to welcome the guests.

The wedding team did his makeup, he stood in the middle of the crowd, his body was straight, dignified, dark eyebrows seem to fall on the stars. The emcee was talking to him, the surroundings were too noisy, Qingcheng Xie and tall, did not hear, so he tilted his head sideways so that the emcee could speak close to his ear, the face showed a shockingly transparent white, as if the spotlight shone on the thin porcelain, even the slightest touch will make it break, the color of the lips is also slightly lighter, like blood frozen under the ice.

The skin is like a glazed world, and the lips are like frosty red plums.

Yu He is not into men, but he is a very aesthetic person.

In that moment, he had a feeling that although the woman called Ruoqiu Li was also very good-looking, but in all fairness, Yu He thought that she and Qingcheng Xie together, the proposal picture might look like this -

Qingcheng Xie should be dressed in white, pinned to the usual ballpoint pen and pen, hands in the pockets of the coat like the flower of the high mountain, and then with a tone of voice, said to the girl:

"I'm going to marry you, so get down on your knees and give thanks."

Of course, he is a very good at disguise, he will not tell the truth.

Yu He walked up with a smile on his shoulder bag, stood in front of the handsome groom and the beautiful bride, and said, "Thank you, Doctor, sister-in-law."

Ruoqiu Li : "This is..."

Qingcheng Xie introduced to his wife, "A friend's son."

He had an agreement with He's family that he would not say Yu He was a patient outside.

Ruoqiu Li complimented, "How beautiful, what a good-looking child."

Yu He politely owed, gentlemanly, with deep black eyes with a smile: "Where, sister-in-law, you are the one who really looks beautiful."

Said, the teenager took the sealed red envelope from the shoulder canvas school bag, very thick, gentle and elegant said, "Wish you and Dr. Xie a hundred years of good luck."

Hundred years of good cooperation, my ass.

He felt at that time Qingcheng Xie this kind of man will not be able to tolerate, did not expect this marriage is really so short. Now it seems that he still has the ability of Yan Ling?

Yu He held back his gloating and asked, without moving, "How did you get away."

Qingcheng Xie did not speak.

"I remember she was very fond of you at that time. She came to my house after she and you got married, and at that time she didn't have anyone in her eyes but you."

Qingcheng Xie opened his mouth and said, " Yu He , this is really a personal matter for me."

Yu He raised his eyebrows slightly.

He surveyed Qingcheng Xie's lonely appearance and suddenly felt that when he came back from a few years abroad and saw this person again, it seemed that many things were different.

He just wasn't curious about Qingcheng Xie's changes, so he finally smiled, "Forget it then, good luck on your blind date."

Qingcheng Xie's shallow gaze glanced over him, and without saying thank you, he turned around and walked away.

The dormitory door closes behind him.

As Yu He mentioned his ex-wife, Qingcheng Xie couldn't help but think back to his failed marriage to Ruoqiu Li on the road.

Qingcheng Xie actually knew why Xue Xie did not mention this to Yu He.

Because the reason for his divorce is embarrassing - Ruoqiu Li did love him, but she did stop loving him later.

She cheated.

This is unacceptable to Qingcheng Xie, a man who does not know what love is, but knows what family responsibilities are, and in some places, he is very conservative in his thinking.

But she is different.

She believes that the most important thing in marriage is love, not responsibility, so in the end they still mirror broken hairpin, she fell in love with a married man, but after the incident, crying and accusing him of only work in his eyes and heart, married to him and married to a cold work schedule is no different.

Such accusations are not unjustified, and Qingcheng Xie knows that he is a man without emotions.

In this relationship, Qingcheng Xie actually did not feel any love, she chased him for many years, he later also felt that it was also suitable, contact for a period of time, also married.

After marriage, he didn't avoid doing the things that a husband should do and the obligations that he should do.

But that's not the kind of marriage she wants.

Qingcheng Xie is very responsible, but he is not romantic and somewhat aloof in nature. He even between the bed can maintain a calm and rational, not sinking, not obsessed, like to complete a family must be done after the work, to do their duty, but not so keen.

Her heart gradually cooled down.

She cheated on him and turned around and said, " Qingcheng Xie , you are a man without a heart. You still don't understand to this day that I want to have love, not just marriage."

But what is love?

Qingcheng Xie only felt his headache was splitting, I don't know how much energy it took to hold back from slapping the table in anger. He looked at her then, looked for a long time, and finally numbly opened his mouth, his voice calm as stagnant water: "Does that man like you? He has a wife and a daughter, how much do you think he really means to you?"

When asked this question, she raised her head and her gaze burned with something that Qingcheng Xie simply could not understand.

"...... I don't care if he has a wife and kids. All I know is that when he hugged me, it was at least passionate. I can hear his accelerated heartbeat. Unlike you, Qingcheng Xie , you're clean, never fussy, you give me your money and your home, but your heartbeat for me is like a dead man's EKG, married for so many years, always a straight line."

"Life in the world for just a few decades, he had been bound by his own unfortunate marriage, and so was I. Now I want to open up, I can not want the name, not the money, not even the fame, people say I am a slut/whore or broken shoes, I just want to be with him."

Qingcheng Xie closed his eyes, the cigarette in his hand almost burned his fingers: " Ruoqiu Li, you are crazy, right? There is no love in this world, love is the dopamine in the human body is reacting, is your hormone is acting, but there is responsibility in this world, there is family. You burned out to be with him, is he willing to divorce and live with you?"

Silence.

Then the fire in Ruoqiu Li's eyes burned hotter and crazier, and she finally said to him with tears in her eyes, but without stubbornness, "I just don't want to regret it."

"Qingcheng Xie, there is love in this world, it may be treacherous, against human decency, perhaps down to the dirt, dirty, but it exists, and has nothing to do with hormones and dopamine."

"I'm sorry I can't live with you anymore because I now know what love is. I love him, even though it's wrong."

After years of divorce, Qingcheng Xie still feels ridiculous whenever she thinks of this conversation.

If the so-called love is to let a person know that it is wrong, but also to break the head, knowing that a foot down is the abyss, but also to obsess, cursing, spiteful, moral, life, the bottom line ...... anything can be disregarded. Then in his opinion, I'm afraid this is not a love, but a disease.

He could not empathize with it.

Although his character is very hard, but after all, straight men, but also some macho, his wife cheated, and a married man ran away, he was still hurt in the end.

For a while after the divorce, Qingcheng Xie continued to work, write papers, and lead students, usually without any signs of distress. But everyone around him could see that he was rapidly losing weight, his cheeks were slightly sunken, and he spoke with a rasp in his voice.

The leader, out of the fear that "in case he hangs up, the school will be in the news", asked him warmly: "Professor Xie, if you are not feeling well, take time off to go home and rest for a while, don't hold out."

The leader asked himself that it would be difficult for him to complete such a project in such a short period of time even when he was at the peak of his mental clarity and physical strength.

"Do you want me to go back?" Qingcheng Xie to the office chair a lean, slender ten fingers folded, thin like light paper like people, thin like green smoke like shape, raised his eyes to look at people is still clear, and can even be said to be cold sharp.

"I do want to take a break, but please make sure that the first lecture of this class can be made like this by someone else besides me."

There are no people who can make it like this naturally.

The leader also saw from his torch-like gaze that his school would not be on the hot seat for a while - it was not the kind of look that someone who was about to die would have.

But almost no one knew that in order to be able to work well, in order to be able to press the fragmented emotions into the heart of the landfill, Qingcheng Xie would sit in the house and smoke whenever he came home, coughing uncontrollably and not willing to stop, almost to turn his lungs black, to turn the whole house into a nicotine playground.

He looked like this and was seen by the neighbor's Auntie Lai, and it was hard to bear.

Xie's family was originally very well-off, his parents were both very high-ranking police superintendent, but then made an important mistake in handling the case, both were transferred down to the grassroots. At that time Xie's mother was sick again, in order to give her medical treatment, they sold their house and lived in a small alley in the old city of Huzhou, living in poverty, but met a lot of warm-hearted neighbors.

Qingcheng Xie parents died when Qingcheng Xie are not yet adults, to take responsibility for the head of the family, the neighbors look at the children poor, they are very care for them, and these people, the best for Qingcheng Xie is this Aunt Lai.

Auntie Li is a little younger than Qingcheng Xie's mother and loves children, but has never married and has no children of her own. She is almost the Xie siblings as their own baby, especially after the death of Xie's father and mother, this floating weeds like a woman, and the two parents see abandoned children from each other to find some of the emotions can not be abandoned.

Qingcheng Xie divorced, Auntie Lai to tears for a while, and then and a worried old mother like, to try to introduce him to girls.

He, too, in order not to hurt Auntie Lai's feelings, so they all went, but he was really just going through the motions, and he wasn't a very good choice for those girls -

Qingcheng Xie first married, the conditions are considered very good, he is handsome, tall, a doctor in a tertiary care hospital, twenty years old, the wind is in the ascendant, the future is promising.

The only hardware flaw is that he comes from a less than stellar background and has no money.

Now, however, he is a second marriage, when the university professor's salary is not as high as when he was a doctor, and people are no longer so young, so his defects become unusually jagged diaphragm bone. The divorced man, the age of four, no good house no good car, and there is a sister who did not marry someone who needs his care in the drag.

The face is handsome, and not a star, can not always be exchanged for the money to live a life.

How can the parents of the girl not mind?

Dating and love is not the same, the first look at the said eye, in fact, is a combination of conditions, so the conversation often occurs as follows:

"It's a good job, right? Can you take care of your family?"

"I can't. Because it is a medical school professor, the content of the lecture notes need to be very careful, can not make mistakes, and students have many questions, and often work overtime."

"Oh ...... that's a good paycheck, right?"

"It will probably take another three years or so of teaching before I get promoted. But I'm not sure I'll still be at the college in three years."

"So, ...... do you have other family members at home?"

"...... has a sister."

"Married?"

"Not yet."

......

The stabbing is often sharp and straightforward, the knife generally dissects the human condition, but also the other side at the beginning of the smile with hope chipped clean.

Auntie Lai knows, anxiously: "Hey, dating is to boast about yourself! This is a rule of engagement, others are bragging, but you come up to say that you are worse, people think I will talk worse, who knows you come the other way!"

Qingcheng Xie originally wanted to say, "I don't want to get married anymore."

But against Auntie Lai's anxious to somewhat sad eyes, the words changed to, "...... I'm used to it. Sorry."

Aunt Lai stared at him, staring, and choked up: "Children, you say you are so good, how the Buddha does not bless you ...... I burn incense every day and worship every day, is to beg God to my family's treasure to find a good marriage again, then I immediately died is worth it ... ... ..."

"Aunt Lai, you can't talk nonsense."

"I'm this old bones I'm still afraid of what, you're different, you're still young, if the future is not as good, I went underground, where I still have the face to see your father and Mu Ying ......"

Auntie Lai insisted on finding him all kinds of girls, always hoping to set up a marriage.

Qingcheng Xie's heart is very unpleasant, he is a high-minded hard man, refused to lie, also do not want to be picked on, and for some reason, his state of mind has been completely different from when he was dating Ruoqiu Li, he is very sure that he will not spend the rest of his life with anyone.

But with his character as the man in charge, how could he stand to have his friends and family grieve and shed tears for him? He can only accept that they are living happily under his protection and care.

So even if the results are predictable, he will agree to go to those job application-like blind dates in order to make Auntie Lai happier.

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The match with him is a very young girl named Jing Bai, a relative of the family teaching in the university, I heard that is also a well-known medical school. And she herself is in Huzhou's most fashionable mall as a luxury counter girl.

The coastal city of gold, the most is not lacking is the assets of billions of gold owners, the girl spent her days in the high luxury counters between the dip, listening to the male and female customers to and from the high talk, can not help but have the illusion that they are also very noble and cold, look at people with their heads held high, first look at the clothes logo, the boys wearing Adi Nike all in the heart stamped on the poor forced steel, at least set a prada to match with her to talk.

Qingcheng Xie came to the cafe when Jing Bai was on the phone with his girlfriend: "Oh, yes, you do not know oh, I work every day to meet that kind of stupid, today also came to two mother and son, the son wearing what do not know, it is estimated that the treasure, if not my professionalism, white eyes are going to roll to the sky, hey, wear Taobao to shop We counter, you nest hair dimple not hair dimple la."

Jing Bai listened to her best friend say something back on her cell phone and hid her mouth.

"Then what else can I buy? Surely nothing can afford to buy ah, our counter a pair of slippers may have to their mother and son half a year's salary it. Hey, baby, and I tell you oh, you know what that boy came up and said to me? He said to me, 'Do you have baseball caps for sale here? My mom likes sports, she has a birthday today, I want to buy her a baseball cap.' ."

Jing Bai laughed and trembled.

"I went straight back to him and said, sorry oh, we've never had a baseball cap out of this brand, sir you don't know our brand? Hahahahaha, you did not see his face! Special wonderful ...... oops, wait a minute, and my blind date the man seems to come, I first do not talk to you, turn back together to Bulgari playing afternoon tea oh baby, love you! Mua!"

Unfortunately, the cafe was noisy and Qingcheng Xie was looking for someone, so she didn't hear her talk.

Jing Bai saw the way he looked around, and matched the image of "very tall, very handsome, peach blossom eyes, but very cold temperament" described by the matchmaker, and immediately waved at him: "Hi!

Qingcheng Xie came over: "Well. Hello."

Jing Bai looked him up and down, and finally locked his eyes on his simple T-shirt, suddenly smiling, his voice was whispered an octave: "Hello hello, my name is Jing Bai."