Chapter 170: Promised the marriage

Qingcheng Xie took a leave of absence, and wanted to rest at home for two days.

He had been lying almost motionless on his bed, and the monitoring data on his phone had been set to alert him if the threshold was exceeded for a long time.

But the alarm never went off - Yu He didn't want to disappoint Qingcheng Xie, so he tried to restrain himself and did everything he could to keep himself from having an attack.

In the afternoon of the next day, Qingcheng Xie woke up from a blurred sleep and found a man sitting in front of him.

He thought it was Miaoqing Li and said to her, "Aunt Li, you go about your business, I'm fine ......"

"Brother."

A soft call full of sadness and worry brought Qingcheng Xie back to his senses, and he fixed his eyes on Xue Xie instead of Miaoqing Li, who was sitting at his bedside.

"......"

He and Xue Xie have not gotten along well for a long time, and since the affair between Xue Xie and Dongheng Wei became public, Qingcheng Xie has not had a good face to show his sister. Xue Xie is still a bit scared to face him, but because he is obviously sick, and can not help but worry.

Multiple emotions intertwined on her face, making her expression look even a little comical.

Qingcheng Xie : "...... What are you doing back? No class this afternoon?"

"Aunt Li said you weren't feeling well, so I took time off to keep you company." Xue Xie helped Qingcheng Xie sit up and took a duck down pillow for him to lean on.

Qingcheng Xie has changed into clean clothes, the room is not turned on the headlights, the light is dark, Xue Xie can not see the hickeys on Qingcheng Xie's skin.

She held his hand worriedly, whispering softly, "Brother, how are you?

Qingcheng Xie, who was already in a bad mood, looked at her for a moment and felt even worse, so he turned his face away without saying a word.

Xue Xie, who knows how to be funny, stopped asking questions.

She sat with Qingcheng Xie for a while, then suddenly thought of something and said, "Brother, you wait a little."

The little girl went to the table and tinkered with something. A few moments later she went and returned, and it turned out that she had opened a can of yellow peaches.

"You see, when I was sick as a child, you took this kind of canned food to coax me to be good and take my medicine, and then there was yellow peach candy water to eat." Xue Xie scooped a spoonful, handed the fruit that looked sweet to the heart to Qingcheng Xie , "I was coaxed by you, for a while thought the canned yellow peaches were hospital medicine, and I thought what medicine is so delicious, sick can eat this medicine is also too happy."

Qingcheng Xie took the spoon and ate two bites with no expression.

Then finally spoke, "That's because you weren't smart from a young age and were easily fooled."

Xue Xie : "......"

"Growing up is the same."

Xue Xie knew that he was talking about Dongheng Wei again and was a little sad.

Qingcheng Xie finished the canned yellow peaches slowly, and Xue Xie didn't say another word in the process.

He put the empty glass jar to the side, more or less recovered some physical strength, and only then he noticed that Xue Xie carried home those things, there are bird's nest ginseng propolis wormwood tin maple dou - in a word, these tonic all eaten non-dead or disabled.

It's really too much, the gift-giver seems to have no medical common sense at all, just caught a chance to curry favor, just about the whole medicine national medical school to move to show sincerity.

Qingcheng Xie was silent for a moment: " Dongheng Wei brought you here?"

Xue Xie hesitated, but nodded.

Qingcheng Xie : "Where is he?"

"He dropped me off here and left, he was afraid you would see him get angry ......"

Qingcheng Xie gave an icy laugh: "That little white hair still has the time to be afraid?"

Xue Xie eyes showed some sadness: "Brother, you do not do this ...... I know, you are for my good. You are worried that I will be deceived, you are afraid that he will bully me, afraid that he will not learn. I know from childhood to bring me up, afraid that I bumped, always hope that I can live a safe and smooth life. That's why you're so wary of him."

Qingcheng Xie : "......"

Xue Xie : "I know all about it."

"But ...... but some times, can you trust me a little too?" Xue Xie whispered.

Perhaps because Qingcheng Xie is sick, not much energy to argue with her, and perhaps Yu He's affair has broken him too much, Qingcheng Xie deep inside, also finally some wavering, think that the matter of feelings sometimes even the parties involved can not figure out, let alone outsiders.

Anyway, this time, Qingcheng Xie leaned back on the pillow with a pale face, but did not speak.

Xue Xie saw the situation, the courage to say: "brother, I told you before, I have been with Dongheng Wei for more than a year, perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, this year is not a long time, but we both know, we do not see each other every day, will miss each other, he was in Northwest, wrote me a lot of letters, you also know that he originally did not like to write. As you know, he was originally not much of a writer ......"

Qingcheng Xie's cold face.

It looks like he is eager to comment on Dongheng Wei's lack of learning.

Xue Xie took his hand and said: " Dongheng Wei this person, since childhood has not let his parents worry, he skipped school, bombed the street, prank ...... these I know, I used to hate him, because he always bullied me, I thought he was particularly bad-hearted at that time. Until one Christmas in high school, I came home from school and saw him wandering around in the alley - I was so scared, worried that he would see me and pull my braid, so I hid. Brother, do you know what I saw?"

"......"

"I saw him come out of the convenience store, holding a bunch of snacks and drinks, that alley on both sides of lying many homeless people, he took advantage of their sleep, quietly put those things on their side, and then ride the car quickly on the run, probably because he felt that good deeds are not cool, afraid to be his group of young brothers found to laugh at him, he rode the car to ride especially fast, and escape Similarly, the result in the alley at the mouth of the wheel a skid, he fell down with the car to the road."

Xue Xie was caught up in the memory and couldn't help but laugh.

"He stumbled up on the ice, looked nervously left and right, stroked his hair, pretended nothing had happened again, straddled the bike again and rode off crookedly."

"......"

"That's when I thought that maybe he wasn't as bad as people were saying."

When Xue Xie saw that Qingcheng Xie was willing to listen to her, she slowly told him everything that had been weighing on her mind.

"Brother, you taught me when I was a child that I should rely on my own eyes to see people, and not to completely trust other people's evaluation. I have watched Dongheng Wei for more than 10 years. He is not an obedient and understanding person, but I can be sure that he is kind and responsible at heart. More than a decade, I have seen him more than once taking stray kittens and puppies to pet rescue stations, giving food and drink to beggars, and you know what ...... he would even look at a wild flower blooming on the side of the road for half a day and then giggle. He has a heart that finds the humble and the beautiful." Xue Xie said, "It's just that he never wanted anyone to know."

Qingcheng Xie raised his eyebrows: "Why doesn't he want anyone to know?"

"The more everyone called him names, sarcastically compared him to Yu He, the more he resisted and didn't want to be like Yu He, a nobleman praised by everyone. He has a lot of self-respect in his bones, which is similar to Yu He. Xue Xie said, "After I dated him, I asked him why he only let others see his bad side, but hid his kindness and softness, and he refused to say anything for half a day with a blank face.

"He said Dongheng Wei is Dongheng Wei, so why should it be another Yu He? Is it right for a child to be like Yu He, who is good at everything and polite and discreet? He doesn't want to."

"I've observed both of them, and I know Dongheng Wei's nature is much more pure than Yu He's. He has bad written on his face, but inside he's very soft."

Qingcheng Xie : "......"

"Brother, I really like Dongheng Wei."

Qingcheng Xie seemed to look weary: "How much do you like it?"

Xue Xie thought about it and said, "It's irreplaceable."

Qingcheng Xie didn't expect her to say such an answer, his heart fluttered and he looked at her with open eyes.

The same thing Yu He said to himself - I love you, I want to be with you every minute, you can't be replaced by anyone or anything.

Xue Xie said, "Brother, I've liked him for ten years. I know that I will never like another person as much as I like him."

Qingcheng Xie uddenly turned his face away.

"I have a diary with a lot of things written in it from the past, I think you will understand him better after reading it, if you would like to ......"

"That's your privacy, I'm not going to look at it."

"......"

Xue Xie then silent for a while, and some dare not speak, stumbling, and finally she said, "Then forget it, brother, if you really do not want to talk about this matter, I will not say, I will tell you a story, tell jokes, to make you happy, OK?"

She grabbed his hand and shook it a little, sitting very slightly uncomfortably on the edge of the bed, squatting down and looking up at him, "We haven't had a good conversation for a long time. Brother, are you really still angry with me?"

Qingcheng Xie was quiet for a while and finally said, "I'm not angry with you, I just blame you for doing things too impulsively."

"What?"

Qingcheng Xie Road: "You are a girl, you have to contact with him, you should also learn to self-protection, but you ......"

He did not say anything further, but Xue Xie stiffened for a moment, understood, and suddenly his face turned red.

Qingcheng Xie coughed, hating the irony: "You say you, do you look like that?"

Xue Xie know themselves and big brother this old-fashioned theory of premarital sex is a waste of time, before Ruoqiu Li also complained with her, said Qingcheng Xie and her love, even the initiative to kiss, talk about a relationship discreet is actually good, but this makes it too passionless, exactly like in accordance with the operating instructions to complete some kind of work.

Xue Xie only had to say, "Speaking of which ...... brother ...... actually there is one more thing that I have been wanting to say to you."

"What?"

Xue Xie again stammered and did not follow up.

"......" Qingcheng Xie said, "You don't tell me that you two have discussed getting married."

Xue Xie was frozen for a moment and froze: "How do you know?"

Qingcheng Xie stiffened for a long time, and then without expression, his voice did not ripple: "...... you go and bring me the cigarettes on the table."

Xue Xie although very do not want Qingcheng Xie smoke, but now this kind of pressure, she still dare and Qingcheng Xie say half a word? The company's main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to its customers.

Qingcheng Xie didn't even bother to care if Xue Xie was around, lit a cigarette, smoked half of it, didn't say anything.

The room is silent, the light outside the window with the curtains swinging and strobe, the light shines on Xue Xie face, Qingcheng Xie look at the face of the rouge did not go down.

Finally Qingcheng Xie asked, "When did you guys get the idea."

"He ...... he went to Northwest six months ago before ......" Xue Xie stammered, "his family elder brother you also know, is Military family, but his character is really not suitable for the army, his parents are planning to slowly help him in the future business, but before that, they said they want him to go to Northwest to exercise, he promised is promised, just put a request ......"

"What's the request." Qingcheng Xie's knuckles curled and tapped lightly on the cigarette ash.

Xue Xie's cheeks were already red: "He and his parents said they wanted to wait for the workout to come back, graduate, and get ...... married to me."

She finished and immediately buried her face even lower, as if she was afraid that Qingcheng Xie would directly hit her head with the mug in her hand next moment and tell her to get out.

I didn't expect her to wait for half a day, but nothing moved.

It was a long time before she heard a soft "click" that sounded broken in the silence of the bedroom.

She smelled the faint smell of tobacco, Qingcheng Xie a cigarette ran out, and smoked another one.

"Brother ......" Thank you to pluck up the courage, fearful, confused to lift the face, face is Qingcheng Xie caged in a heavy blue haze, can not see the face of the eyebrows.

Qingcheng Xie quietly smoked this cigarette without looking at Xue Xie, who was leaning against the back of the bed, his long fingers holding the end of the cigarette, his gaze looking a little lost, cast in the center of the snow-white ceiling.

He did not say anything, Xue Xie did not dare to say anything, clutching his skirt, all tense in waiting.

This one cigarette was also smoked out.

Qingcheng Xie dusted off the ashes and discarded the last butts in the ashtray next to him as he spoke, probably because he had smoked too much and his voice was a bit hoarse.

"So what do you think of yourself."

Xue Xie froze again.

She was ready to be scolded by Qingcheng Xie, but she never expected Qingcheng Xie to ask her this.

Xue Xie's elder brother has always been a dictator, he gave Xue Xie strong protection, but also never cared too much about what she thought. So when he really asked Xue Xie the question "What do you think", Xue Xie's first reaction was actually that she couldn't react.

"Since you've been honest with me today, let's talk about it all." Qingcheng Xie, who was now at peace with himself after his extreme heartbreak, raised his peach blossom eyes to look at his sister, "Do you want to marry him too?"

"I ......"

Xue Xie's face was so red that it seemed to be dripping blood, but there was an inexplicable light in her eyes. That light is very familiar, Qingcheng Xie seems to have seen somewhere, just can not remember.

"Brother ...... I really like him ...... I ......"

"You know marriage is not a child's play. It's not the same as if you were simply in a relationship. That's a responsibility and a contract to another person. Do you think you and he are right for each other."

"......"

"I know you think he is kind and faithful. But after all, he is younger than you, impetuous and notoriously capricious, you will be very tired with him. Xue Xie ."

"These places, he, he has changed a lot ...... you guys don't know him ......"

"And what do you know about him?" Qingcheng Xie coughed softly, "You don't have to tell me you've been watching him for ten years - that's just a person's past, and what you've seen is only part of it."

"......"

"Do you know what his family's plan for his life is like? And do you know what his plans for his future look like? You just said he wants to marry you after he graduates and then go into business. That's the business world, Xue Xie, that's not school. How old are you?"

"Twenty-five."

"What about him?"

"...... twenty-three."

"He's only twenty-three years old, and after ten years, he'll be the age your brother and I are today. How much confidence do you have in ten years to guarantee that he will always like you? The business world is full of young and good-looking girls, and to reach that position in his family will still mix with people in the entertainment industry, you yourself are a teacher in an art school, you know more or less what the entertainment industry is like. How much temptation and intrigue there is."

"But he won't, he grew up-"

"He's only twenty-three years old, Xue Xie . When I was twenty-three, I could never have imagined that I would be like this today." Qingcheng Xie paused for a moment as he thought of Yu He - who would have imagined the crazy things that would happen between them when he was twenty-three and Yu He was just a ten-year-old?

" Xue Xie , Dongheng Wei his life is just beginning, many things are impossible to say."

Qingcheng Xie lit another cigarette and smoked it, coughing slightly.

This one did not finish, he put out the cigarette.

"Just take a step back and say, even if he really will not take the initiative how. With his position in the world, there is no shortage of embracing, socializing and socializing. You can tolerate it?"

"He and I said he wouldn't."

Xue Xie was very determined, and there was a certain light in his eyes. Qingcheng Xie thought that light was familiar, as if he had seen it somewhere, but he couldn't remember.

Qingcheng Xie was quiet for a while, when the big event came to this point, he would not get angry, he only asked very coldly: "There are many good and loyal people in this world, Dongheng Wei is not the only one, what do you really like about him?"

"I do not know, like this kind of thing ...... on ...... hard to explain ...... I just see him I am very happy, he is the same, together there is a lot to say, apart from the very miss."

"I've always been happy and at ease with the time I've spent with him, and I feel like he won't hurt me, and that sense of security is the same as when I'm with you, brother."

"Brother ...... can you understand?"

Qingcheng Xie was silent.

If the Xue Xie of a year ago had said these things to him, he might not have understood her feelings.

But at this moment, as he listened to the things she described, a string deep inside him was gently touched - there was another person who also played on this string, only that person, Qingcheng Xie, could never give a response.

Qingcheng Xie was quiet for a while and said, "You don't regret it even if your head is bleeding?"

"I'm not going to break my head."

"I'm asking you if you regret it afterwards."

"If my head really broke, I wouldn't regret it." Xue Xie said at the end, his voice was slightly trembling.

Qingcheng Xie doesn't answer anymore.

He squinted his eyes through the smoke, and his lips were slightly open, inexplicably, as if looking at Zhu Chengbi and seeing Yu He, who was holding his hand and crying on the day of his confession.

He suddenly remembered the kind of light in Xue Xie's eyes, where he had seen it before.

It was the time when Yu He cut his heart open to him and finally told him the love in his heart.

-- "I'm the one who has to break my head and moth to the light ...... I don't think that's right either, but I still love you."

"Because I'm really crazy, I know the fucking end, but also a black walk to the end. So wretched and bruised, and will still want to embrace you."

"I'm all in the mud and dust, yet I still like the snow in the sky, I'm the one who's doing it wrong, not you ......"

"It hurts to love you, Qingcheng Xie , it hurts to love you, I can't get ...... I know I have to let go, but I'm still ...... still loving you day by day... ..."

Qingcheng Xie felt a certain place in his chest that seemed to have collapsed.

He slowly closes his eyes.

In this instant, he looked as if he had aged many, many years.

" Xue Xie ."

"Brother."

"What if I insist on not."

"...... I ......" This time it wasn't the voice that was trembling, Xue Xie's whole body was shaking slightly, pain and suffering visible to the naked eye surfaced on her "If you ...... you insist on not ......"

"What are you going to do if I insist on not doing it?"

Xue Xie sat on her knees in front of his bed, almost a little broken, her eyes quickly filled with tears, after a long time, she gagged: "...... I ...... will listen to you. Because I love you. I love you the most. It was you who raised me, how much you suffered who knows, even I think there are many things even I do not know. If you really don't like him, and you really insist that you don't want me to be with him, I will listen to you."

"But brother, I'm never going to be happy."

"......"

Qingcheng Xie opened his eyes for a long time, but did not repeat his words.

He finally lowered his head and seemed to hold back some emotion that swept through his eyes that shouldn't have belonged to him, an emotion he rarely had.

Then he got up - he was lying with his clothes together, and it was naturally easy to get out of bed.

At this moment, he no longer wants to stay inside the house. He feels very uncomfortable inside, and this cramped space will only make him even more unable to breathe.

"Brother--"

When Qingcheng Xie walked past Xue Xie, he didn't look down, nor did he look back, he just reached out and put his hand on the top of her hair with great force, the same way she used to come back to him in tears every time she was in trouble.

Xue Xie tilted his head, but he could not see Qingcheng Xie's unturned face.

She only saw a tall profile of him, and then heard him say, "Then you go. ...... You remember, the path is your choice, and I hope you don't regret it."

"Brother ......" Xue Xie trembled even more.

"But if you really regret it later, you feel that you made the wrong choice. You should not feel ashamed, people are the first time to this world, make many choices when they are inexperienced, are the first time to choose. Wrong and right, no one could have predicted. If you are really wrong, just remember, as long as I am still alive, at any time, anywhere, you still have a home."

"I will take care of you and will be your support until the day I die."

Xue Xie's eyes burst into tears, how she did not expect, she has been afraid to talk to Qingcheng Xie about this matter, in her eyes her big brother is strong, powerful, but say one thing, dictatorial / domineering.

She could not have imagined that when she really - with her heart and soul - honestly told him her decision, he would give herself such an answer.

She can no longer hold back, wow cried, she got up, a hug Qingcheng Xie waist, put his cheek against his back, since childhood how many times, is this broad straight back, carrying play tired, injured, tired of her home ......

It is obviously such a happy thing, Xue Xie is lost in tears, saying nothing to let him go: "Brother! Brother ......"

"What are you crying about." Qingcheng Xie still did not turn around, no one knows what kind of look he has at the moment, his voice is still calm, "You have to grow up on your own later, Xue Xie , I will always help you though,......"

He didn't say any more.

At this point, he paused.

Finally he patted Xue Xie's hand: "Let go, how old are you, shame on you."

"Shame on you."

"Loosen up."

"I don't want to be shameless."

"......"

"Brother, give me a hug, I love you so much."

"...... You're not fucking awake?"

"I don't want to be shameless."

"......"

The cold light in the room seemed to become gentle at this moment, and Xue Xie's voice with some choking and some laughter came out of the window faintly -

"Brother, I'm going to Dongheng Wei's house for dinner next week ...... what do you think I should wear ......"

"The skirt can't go past the knee."

"...... ah ...... how to do this again ......"

Gradually, the words became plain and warm.

Outside the house.

Yu He who can't rest assured that Qingcheng Xie is actually always there.

He leaned against the cold wall, listened to the conversation in the house behind him, straightened up, before the siblings came out from inside, dusted off the ash rubbed on the wall, and walked slowly away alone.