Chapter 140: You initiated the kiss

Yu He has only used the blood compulsion a few times against Qingcheng Xie.

The use of too little, so Qingcheng Xie subconsciously ignored that Yu He had such sharp teeth and claws.

" Yu He , you ......!"

"I said to tell you to stop trading your life for anyone's. You're the one who didn't listen. You were the one who forced me. Now I can only ask you to do what I say, Qingcheng Xie." Yu He said softly, "You go."

He originally did not intend to say anything more to Qingcheng Xie, but when he got here, he saw Qingcheng Xie's eyes, so he paused and added some words.

"Never mind, I'm not taking your place because I like you. Rather, it's because I didn't really want to live in the first place ...... I'm most unattached."

"You just told Man Chen that if something happened to him, his parents would be upset. But - think about it, if something happened to you, would Xue Xie be devastated?"

Yu He shallow smile, that smile with a few points of arrogance, a few points of loneliness, not at all like a person who is going to die.

"I'm not the same."

"......"

"When I die, no one will be genuinely sad."

"......"

"You're a very sensible, calculating person, and you know it's the least sacrifice to lose."

"Come on, Qingcheng Xie , don't make the wrong choice."

Yu He said this and pulled down the emergency wrench on the control panel.

Qingcheng Xie had been tormented by his blood compulsion, and Yu He's words seemed to turn into invisible threads, diving into his body, wrapping around his bones, his joints, to manipulate him. He could only mechanically follow Yu He's instructions, step by step, towards the fallen gangway.

Hot sweat soaked Qingcheng Xie's back, and he wanted to turn back, but Yu He had too much blood in his throat this time, and the order he gave was too firm.

Qingcheng Xie could not immediately break free from Yu He's control this time ......

Yu He stood still and watched him walk upstairs, in the direction of Man Chen.

Yu He is not a forgiving person at heart, he would not want Qingcheng Xie and Man Chen to be together, even if he died, he would want Qingcheng Xie to have sex with only one man in his life.

Just the thought that Man Chen might kiss the lips as thin and pale as the ice of the first spring, the thought that Qingcheng Xie's beautiful appearance in bed might be seen by another boy, he was so jealous that he wanted to drag Man Chen down to hell with him.

That's why he had to warn Man Chen in the end, so grimly -- Qingcheng Xie won't like you.

Qingcheng Xie is a straight man.

He will never love a man.

These words were originally a thorn in Yu He's side, and the thought of them hurt.

But this moment, he felt that these thorns are not useless, at least after his death, let Man Chen a hundred holes.

He was sure that Man Chen would not survive the torture of the spikes.

Man Chen will give up.

In this life, people have a limited number of feelings, they are divided equally between parents, children, brothers, friends ...... lovers.

Man Chen is a person who comes from a normal society, and the feelings he can give to Qingcheng Xie are only a part of what has been split up.

Yu He is not the same.

Yu He has only Qingcheng Xie.

All the feelings in his life, in his body, were pinned on Qingcheng Xie alone.

So Man Chen couldn't get Qingcheng Xie would hurt.

And Yu He will die if he loses Qingcheng Xie.

"Let's go." Yu He once again urged the blood compulsion and said this to Qingcheng Xie.

"Get out of here."

"And then ......"

It was as if the power of the blood compulsion would be applied to Qingcheng Xie's remaining life.

Yu He said, "Forget about me."

Qingcheng Xie was so angry at his last words that his heart burned within him, and his overwhelming anger caused him to suddenly break free of the blood compulsion's embedding, and he choked and coughed violently, his eyebrows raised in anger, and he turned around with a shuddering body!

Yu He eyes sank, he just wanted to once again increase the power of the blood compulsion, the power of the pressure stacked on Qingcheng Xie, but at that moment, a creepy creaking sound suddenly came from above his head.

Yu He looked up and there was a section of burning rafter wood!

The section of wood was burning, already shaky, and almost as soon as Yu He noticed it, the last bit of the joint was burnt through.

The broken wood fell straight down -

Just hear a loud bang!

" Yu He!!!"

Qingcheng Xie in that moment to endure the heartbreaking pain, like a thousand puppet silk in the blink of an eye from the flesh and blood, completely broke away from the control of the blood compulsion, fiercely lunged towards Yu He.

"BANG!!!"

The burning building materials came down, and at the same time, Qingcheng Xie jumped on Yu He and pushed him aside with inertia.

This is a close call, Qingcheng Xie with Yu He rolled to the corner, both were not hit by the flaming broken wood, but it was a Y-shaped building materials, wood next to the steel and iron bones used to fix, the building materials hit the ground hard when the steel bones broke off and flew out, impartially hitting Qingcheng Xie's back.

Qingcheng Xie stifled his voice, but couldn't help but cough up a mouthful of blood.

Yu He how did not expect things to turn out this way, he was busy lifting his hand to touch Qingcheng Xie's face: " Qingcheng Xie, you, how do you ......"

Qingcheng Xie threw a slap directly onto his cheek, causing Yu He's brain to buzz.

"Forget your mother forget you, you've seen too many bitter dramas! You get the fuck up, get up!!!"

He himself is also bloodied at the corners of his mouth, his cheeks are rubbed with ash, and his forehead is oozing with cold sweat because of the blood compulsion.

But he was still so tough that he pulled him up by the lapels of Yu He's jacket.

It's just that his back was smashed too much, that happens to be the location of the lungs, he got up and touched the injury, his face turned white, he couldn't help but gasp low and cough, because it was too painful, his waist was also a little weak.

Seeing him protecting himself like this, Yu He couldn't help but get red-eyed.

He hugged him tightly, almost choking: " Qingcheng Xie ...you...why do you want this ...... you don't like me again... ...you hate me so much ...... why should ......"

Qingcheng Xie raised his hand and poked him hard in the forehead: "Don't talk so much. Quickly go up. I'll pull down the emergency trigger. Hurry up!"

Yu He : "I'm not leaving."

"I can find another way if you leave, but if you don't you'll spend time with me here! There is only so much time left, do you still want to bet with me on this? Qingcheng Xie threatening Yu He and threatening Man Chen are the same way.

Either the sacrifice of another person is not wasted and there is always one saved.

Either that, or bet two lives as the price.

Qingcheng Xie's drive has always been very strong, and no junior has ever been able to hold up in front of him and stick to his choice.

However, Yu He is an exception.

Yu He looked at Qingcheng Xie in the firelight, in the basement where it was increasingly difficult to breathe, with his cheek bruised and his clothes in disarray.

He said, "What can you do to get out when I'm gone? You're just trying to sacrifice yourself!"

The refraction of the flame gives Yu He's cheeks a bright layer of light.

His eyes were fiery, determined, soft, but crazy.

Yu He said, "I won't leave until you do. Qingcheng Xie , early in the reservoir when I told you, I'm not afraid to die."

"If you die, I won't have anyone important in this world. I don't know how many times I have to say it before you can believe me." Yu He paused for a moment and said, word for word, "-You are not dispensable. I can't live without you. I can lose my life, but I can't lose you."

"Qingcheng Xie. To die together, I will not leave you."

Qingcheng Xie stared at him, listening to his eyes red confession, the heart could not help but shake heavily.

The words of this love to the point of terminal illness ...... are touching on the most helpless place in Qingcheng Xie.

The most important thing in the world he can't hear is the phrase "I can't live without you."

When he had a car accident in middle school, what kept him alive was Xue Xie's dependence on him. As he endured the infinite pain in the treatment barn, he often thought of his parents' funeral, where Xue Xie did not yet know what life and death were, and watched dutifully as Ping Xie and Muying Zhou were pushed into the incinerator after their bodies had said goodbye, without reacting too violently.

She is still ignorant of the concept of "death".

She waited until a few hours later, when she followed Qingcheng Xie to pick up her "mom and dad" and take them home. She waited right and left until the staff brought out two boxes of ashes, but she stood still and refused to leave, asking in a daze, "Where are mom and dad?"

Qingcheng Xie held back her grief and told her that this was it.

These still warm, but will soon cool away the ash, these fragmented bones, there are some not fully burned can still see the complete shape ......

These are the parents who once laughed and hugged them and protected them.

It took him a long time to explain to Xue Xie that their mom and dad had left. Finally Xue Xie understood more or less, and her eyes were filled with tears.

She suddenly cried in fear and pulled Qingcheng Xie's hand, jumped into Qingcheng Xie's arms and said, "Brother, will brother leave one day? I don't want to! I can't live without my brother."

"Wow!!! I can't live without my brother! Brother don't go! Don't let anything happen to me! Brother don't go!"

Xue Xie's cries became a charm that beckoned the soul and was attached to Qingcheng Xie's heart.

Later, even if the walking dead, he seemed to be awakened by the girl's cries, staggering from the depths of purgatory, walking back to April earth.

It was these words that summoned him back from hell.

--I can't live without you.

This statement will make him feel that he is still needed despite being crippled.

He still has use.

He ...... is not a person who lives a meaningless life in the world.

But, it was such a phrase that he hadn't actually heard anyone say it with such pleading sincerity for a long time.

As Xue Xie grows up, she slowly develops her own ideas. Although she respects him, she often feels that Qingcheng Xie is too controlling and treats her too harshly.

Her mantra has changed from "I can't live without my brother" as a child to "I have my own ideas, I can do it myself."

Qingcheng Xie understands that she is the right one, but he just can't let go.

But the peanut leaves die and the fruit bearing flowers die.

The relationship between people is like the growth of a manzanita, old and new. Flowers, leaves, and fruits are not carried on one stem and leaves at the same time.

He gradually learned to let go, and knew it was time for him to fade from her life.

This broken and decaying body seems to have done most of its job. There is no one who needs it that insistently anymore.

The rag doll sewing itself and returning to earth to also take care of that little girl, no longer need it, that dirty, old doll, no longer what is irreplaceable, must be left in the world.

Until this moment, Yu He full of smoky black face, skin and abrasion blood, he said to him, brother, I can not live without you.

Qingcheng Xie's chest, a broken, gradually losing color, will fall the charm, as if only by a new life to hold down dead.

Yu He refused to let the charm that held his breath fall.

Yu He said to the rag doll that had been tortured in the depths of his soul and was dying, Qingcheng Xie, I will not leave you.

The flames crackled and became the blazing fire of the rune that knotted the contract.

They were both in the center of the knot, and the teenager embraced the man.

With his life, he was speaking to Qingcheng Xie.

You are the only one.

Qingcheng Xie .

You are the only one.

I can prove with my life and death that my words are true and I am not deceiving.

I will live and die with you without regret forever.

"......" Qingcheng Xie didn't say a word. This old Muppet bear, which no one needs, just looks at the teenager in front of him wordlessly.

And then, I don't know if it was Yu He's illusion.

Qingcheng Xie has always been cold and emotionless, at most in the □ deep thick will be some confusion of the eyes, actually slightly flushed.

Qingcheng Xie suddenly closed his eyes, his voice low and muddy, can not hear what kind of emotions: " Yu He ........."

Yu He choked and coughed and raised his hand to run Qingcheng Xie's hair in front of his forehead: " Qingcheng Xie, you do not go, I will not go, I have accompanied you through so many times life and death, this time will not be an exception. I said I would love you every second and protect you. I did."

Qingcheng Xie : "......"

Yu He hugged him: "I did it, you do not deceive me young, do not say that I do not know anything, that I misunderstood my feelings. I love you, like you, want you ...... I die with you. I did not break my word." At the end, Yu He actually choked up, suffered too much aggression in general, with a crying voice, " Qingcheng Xie ...... I ...... I did not go back on my word!"

Qingcheng Xie A certain feeling in his heart seems to have finally been awakened by the infatuation that the teenager cried out with his life, and his hands are trembling slightly.

" Yu He ......"

The less smoke, the bigger, and the more difficult it is for the two to breathe.

Yu He gradually consciousness has been somewhat dizzy, but he still said:" Qingcheng Xie ...... If people die there is a soul, you must remember, I will never mind you are too old, married, really, in case of death there is another world, you are with me, OK? In case ...... in case you can still live ...... you and I dating OK?"

"......"

"You ...... you've never been on a proper date ...... I'm good at it ...... you must...you must really like ...... you with me, I'll take you for a ride and make you happy ...... I'll ...... cough cough ...... "

The heat was already rolling around and the air was blurred and distorted.

Yu He wanted to continue, but he choked again and was unable to speak for a while.

And at that moment, I don't know if it was out of pity, out of loneliness, or out of the softness of so many times together, or out of the feelings in Qingcheng Xie's heart that had just been shaken from the land of ice and snow.

Qingcheng Xie suddenly put his long fingers into Yu He's ink hair.

The teenager's somewhat lax eyes met the man's eyes.

And then -

Qingcheng Xie turned her face slightly sideways, closed her eyes, and for the first time, in a place other than bed, took the initiative and kissed Yu He's lips for real!

Yu He instantly grabbed his lapel, and for a moment felt more suffocating than the lack of oxygen caused by the fire in this ghost basement.

His entire body shuddered, his eyes widened incredulously, his eyes instantly came into focus, and the light trembled in his pupils.

Qingcheng Xie ...... is kissing him?

Qingcheng Xie Is this ...... really kissing him ......?

Yu He's fingers are trembling, he was originally a very good kisser, but at this moment became a wooden sculpture, puppet marionette, as if there is a rope to lead him, he can only move mechanically.

He felt something warm suddenly cross his cheek, like raindrops falling.

But there will be no rain here.

It took him a while to realize that they were his own tears.

Yu He came back to his senses and he started to turn the tables, he shed tears but was kissing Qingcheng Xie fiercely next. He embraced the man, held the man, he thought, if this is the last thing he does in life, it is enough.

Enough is enough ......

Although he knew that the kiss Qingcheng Xie gave him was certainly not out of love, but an echo, a silent acknowledgement, a helpless apology.

These feelings caused Yu He's heart to suffer extreme pain in the midst of great joy.

But the moment he hugged Qingcheng Xie, and Qingcheng Xie finally hugged him back after hesitation, Yu He thought with joy and sadness...

That's enough.

It's enough.

Qingcheng Xie , you hold me.

As long as you hold me, I turn into ash, into dust and smoke, into the churning past ......

And I'm not afraid anymore.

The two kissed until their feelings were cut to the bone, surrounded by a burning flame, they will be in the fire into silence. No matter what they had been through, how unpleasant the past, in this moment seems to be no longer important, in the flames surrounded by the bloom of two lonely souls, they are relying on each other to support each other towards the end.

Burning building debris was falling.

Yu He's hot tears fell on Qingcheng Xie's shoulders, so hot that they melted the ice and fell straight down to Qingcheng Xie's heart. Qingcheng Xie's fingers are in his hair...

He did not know why he kissed Yu He so hard, so sincerely, so hot and warm.

But at this moment, that's what he wants to do.

In his life, he had never initiated a kiss with anyone while sober, and this was the last and only response he could give to Yu He.

"Boom-!"

Another large section of iron was burned and melted the welding point, fell violently from the top and smashed on the ground. Qingcheng Xie embraced Yu He and brought the man to the most corner position, against the wall and between himself.

" Qingcheng Xie ......"

Qingcheng Xie soothingly touched his forehead hair, and in the increasingly murky air, he said to him, "It's okay, Yu He, it's okay. I'm here."

Scrap iron in the hall behind them roots break off, constantly burning smashed down.

Qingcheng Xie hugged him, shielding him from looking, and his forehead rested against Yu He's forehead.

"Don't be afraid ......"

"I'm here."

"I'm with you."

I can't force you to leave, I already know it's your choice.

Then my choice, is this to accompany you to protect you to the end.

This is the only thing I can give you ...... Yu He ......

The teenager's eyelashes fluttered under his palm, and Qingcheng Xie felt his palm moisten. Another piece of iron fell, this time straight on the digital control panel near them, the iron was so heavy that it shattered the control panel directly, cracking ice like lines on it.

Qingcheng Xie paused for a few seconds, staring at the screen, and suddenly realized something.

"Wait a minute!"

He released the hand that was covering Yu He's eyes.

Yu He said blankly, "What's wrong ......"

Qingcheng Xie eyes did not blink at the smashed digital screen, eyes suddenly had a light, he said to Yu He: "...... hurry to take off your clothes."

Yu He : "?"