Chapter 103: Qingcheng Xie You are responsible for me

A night has passed.

When Yu He woke up, it was already dawn.

He blinked and saw Qingcheng Xie dressed and sitting by the window, smoking.

The window was open a crack, the smoke flowed out through the fingertips, and the morning sun streamed in from outside.

Qingcheng Xie The whole person is not in good shape.

He was haggard, no one could be tormented by Yu He all night without pining. Although he was wearing a casual suit, there were hints of hickeys on his lapel.

And the lips, you can see the bite marks.

Qingcheng Xie looks very annoyed, and the ashtrays are piled up with cigarette butts.

He didn't know when he woke up, and his sleep was much lighter than Yu He's.

Hearing a rustling movement on the bed, Qingcheng Xie turned back: "...... is awake."

"...... hmm."

On such a morning, any relatively tender conversation can occur between them.

For example, how are you doing.

For example, would you like to have some breakfast.

If not, you can also say, "Put on your clothes, it's cold in winter.

But Qingcheng Xie was quiet for a moment, looking at the boy with whom he had had intimate relations too many times, and finally, he chose the calmest and most ruthless sentence -

"Go when you wake up."

Yu He froze in his tracks.

He really did not expect Qingcheng Xie last night and he made that way, but today can say such cold words.

He froze for a moment before saying, "Last night ......"

"You didn't force me last night, it was my brain that was foggy and I didn't control it."

Qingcheng Xie seems to have thought about how to face him for a long time, a reply very quickly and ruthlessly, almost mechanical.

"I don't blame you, you go."

Yu He sat up, like a Long Xiao who had tried his best to please his master but was finally abandoned mercilessly.

His hair is still a bit messy, sticking up, his forehead is still scabbed with blood, and his lip has the bite out of Qingcheng Xie last night.

Qingcheng Xie took one look at him and averted his gaze.

The light of the sky outside the window washed him as if there was no half inch of fresh air belonging to a human being.

Last night things were crazy, the two seemed like they were possessed and did something on New Year's Eve that neither thought the other would do, and now they look back on it with some disbelief.

The night was like a fantasy dream, two people in a dream, who are not so real.

But perhaps too much hot air was consumed, and this wild, completely unplanned love-making drained Qingcheng Xie of the last bit of human breath.

I can see that Qingcheng Xie is very regretful.

Yu He looked at him wordlessly, the dragon cub that worked hard all night was said to be thrown away, saying not aggrieved is false.

But his pride made him refuse to show any aggravation.

Yu He finally also sank his face and said softly, "...... You don't have to be so eager to send me away. No cowboy sent to the door should be treated like this."

Qingcheng Xie : "What's a cowboy?"

Yu He : "...... male/whore."

Qingcheng Xie : "...... Then you're not a male/whore."

Yu He was silent with a stern face.

Qingcheng Xie sighed, put down the phone he was smoking while occasionally glancing at it, and walked over to Yu He's bedside.

Yu He's afterimages swept up what he was just watching - a jellyfish video.

He used to think it was funny, wondering why Qingcheng Xie always had to watch such things. Now he understands that this video is a psychological sedative for Qingcheng Xie, similar to a conditioned reflex, those who have no brain and no heart but are still tenderly alive, is the only comfort in Qingcheng Xie's tragic past.

He therefore knew that Qingcheng Xie must be very uncomfortable and mentally broken to be smoking over and over again and watching this video.

Although Qingcheng Xie is voluntary.

Although Qingcheng Xie was annoyed by him, teased by him, and did with him.

But he knew that Qingcheng Xie was sorry afterwards. And not the usual regret.

As expected, Qingcheng Xie came over to him and the first thing she said to him was, "Yu He, we shouldn't go on like this anymore."

Yu He did not speak and sat in silence.

The teenager's back still has the scars from Qingcheng Xie's uncontrolled scratching last night.

And the people who arrested him said to him that we shouldn't go on like this.

Yu He was very resentful and sad.

He looked up, stared into Qingcheng Xie's eyes, and questioned him silently.

Qingcheng Xie's response was to go and be silent for a while, then go back to the drawer and get the medical kit, get gauze, iodine, cotton swabs, and little by little, silently bandage the wound on Yu He's forehead.

"Don't go out in sight of blood in the middle of the New Year."

The cotton swab was dipped in iodine and gently wiped around the wound, the teenager didn't make a sound, letting Qingcheng Xie give him this little aftercare.

The white cotton gauze was wrapped around his forehead, and when it was fixed, Qingcheng Xie's fingers paused on a row of tape, and finally took a child's band-aid with a small cartoon dinosaur on it and put it on Yu He's forehead.

"All right. Let's go."

"......"

"After a while Xue Xie might be back."

"......"

"It's really not right for us to be like this. I was the one who was impulsive yesterday."

"......"

" Yu He ."

Yu He finally spoke, he sat on the bed, tilted his head, a little bit of messy hair fell in front of the gauze: " Qingcheng Xie, I'm so thirsty. And tired. I want to drink water."

Qingcheng Xie sighed, he can't help it, his thinking is like this, as long as he takes the initiative to want, and others give, he does not care whether they eat or not, will feel that they should pay something, after all, he is a big man.

So he went to pour water for Yu He.

Seeing that he was really willing to pour water for himself, Yu He seemed to be in a slightly better mood. When Qingcheng Xie was busy in front of the tea table, he still poked his head in and raised his hand every now and then to touch the corner of his forehead and the cartoon band-aid at the corner of his forehead.

But when Qingcheng Xie came back with the water, he saw the cup and his face sank again.

It is even heavier than before.

"Here you go. Drink it."

Qingcheng Xie handed him the disposable cup.

Yu He stared at this Ruoqiu Li same paper cup, did not drink, mouth tightly pursed, turned his face away.

Qingcheng Xie did not know where he was wrong again, aunt-like unhappy, frowning: "Drink ah."

Yu He glared at him and suddenly snapped his hand up and knocked the cup off, spilling warm water all over the floor.

Qingcheng Xie : "What are you doing!"

Yu He still glared at him, "What are you talking about me!"

"How do I know what's going on with you?"

"Why can't you understand how I think?"

Qingcheng Xie is simply speechless.

He didn't even know why he was crazy enough to mess with such a thing. He poured water for Ruoqiu Li Ruoqiu Li will say a thank you brother, Yu He fucking fuck / him all night and dare to knock over the cup he handed over!

"I told you Yu He, make enough noise and go back, last night you just pretend that it did not happen, I have said many times, it was a momentary impulse ......"

"Then if I were a woman and you had a spur of the moment like that last night, I would have been pregnant!"

"......"

Qingcheng Xie Look at his justified look, his head hurts to death.

No, given what they did yesterday, it wasn't Yu He who was pregnant, was it? How does he have a face?

But on second thought, it's better for Yu He to say "I should be pregnant" than for him to keep saying "You give me one" and "Brother, you give me one of my seeds," as he did last night in bed. " or "you should be pregnant" is less difficult to accept.

Qingcheng Xie gritted her teeth: "You are not a woman. You are a woman I will not be dizzy with you like this."

"Why wouldn't you be like that if I were female? Are you gay?"

Qingcheng Xie's face turned blue: "I'm not."

"And why are you?"

"......"

Qingcheng Xie does not want to be with him anymore, he looked at the clock on the wall and said, "I can not tell you clearly, anyway, it will not. Don't talk about it, it's late, you hurry up and go, don't let Xue Xie come back and hit it."

" Qingcheng Xie you are a man you have to be responsible, right?"

"I am responsible for you ghost!" Qingcheng Xie was furious, "I told you Yu He, we should have nothing between the two of us. What happened last night is the end of all this, there is no next time. Now you get up. You get up--"

He didn't finish his sentence.

Yu He then suddenly reached out and wrapped his arms around his waist.

"I don't want to. I don't want to go back."

"I'm alone at home, I want to be here, Ruoqiu Li no place to go you still take her in, how can I not ......"

The teenager's forehead against his waist, gently grinding, eyes very some stubborn crazy energy, and with some chaos and confusion.

He rubbed against it and seemed to feel the container in his heart overflowing, filled with a feeling that was foreign to him and that he had not named.

The emotion rose to his pain, his heart needed a medicine, and he instinctively felt that the medicine was in Qingcheng Xie, whose breath could be his palliative.

Let his heart not be twisted by invisible knives.

He closed his eyes and hugged Qingcheng Xie for a while, and suddenly noticed that Qingcheng Xie's body seemed to be trembling slightly.

Touch it again, I actually feel a little hot body temperature.

Yu He suddenly looked up from his waist: "Brother, you have a fever?"

"Why is it so hot on you ......"

"...... It's okay." Qingcheng Xie held his arm to take his hand away.

Yu He wouldn't let go. He stared at Qingcheng Xie for a while -

"Are you sure about that medicine that maintains your health, that it will always work? How else could your health be so poor, every other day ......"

"No one in their right mind can stand you tossing and turning like this." Qingcheng Xie said, "Let go of your hand."

Yu He but the frown deepened: "And your eyesight is getting worse ......"

Qingcheng Xie doesn't want to hear him say these things.

The mentality of avoiding medical treatment is not only common people will have, in fact, as long as the people who are sick, are not very willing to face that full of problems with the diagnosis.

Qingcheng Xie was more or less stung by his inquiry, and the force in his hand was used more, pushing him away violently.

" Yu He , the drugs can prolong my life, but it doesn't mean that they can always continue my physical strength at its peak. I will always love my body, as long as you don't mess with me."

Yu He wordlessly moves his eyes from his face to the ashtray by the windowsill behind him.

Too much soot has accumulated in there.

He stared at Qingcheng Xie, and did not know where a deep resentment: "You call this, love the body?"

"I wouldn't have smoked so much today if you hadn't bothered me."

"......"

"You go."

"......"

"I want to be alone and chill for a while."

Yu He heart of that feeling seems to have suddenly grown into a huge beast grinding teeth and sucking blood, from in his chest cavity little by little stupid, turned into sharp fingers and claws, tearing his internal organs with force.

Yu He said, "No, I'm taking you to the hospital."

"I don't want to fucking go to the hospital!"

Here we go again! How many times a year do you have to go to the hospital? And all because a boy screwed to the body can not stand!

"How can you not go to the hospital when you are sick?" But Yu He asked and then felt not quite sure, he is after all the young master, "...... the first day of the year the hospital is open?"

Qingcheng Xie looked at him trying to do something but not knowing what to do.

Suddenly, I felt quite tired.

Still a kid, after all.

He sighed lowly, "Here's the deal, Yu He ."

"You go back first, I'll do some processing myself." Meeting the boy's eyes, Qingcheng Xie told a lie, "And the hospital is closed today."

"Then I'll put you in touch with my personal doctor-"

"You want to make a big deal out of our relationship, don't you?"

Yu He paused.

Qingcheng Xie took his cell phone, turned it off, and threw it to him.

"I ask you not to do that, if you really think of me as one of your kind. Show me some face."

He doesn't argue with Yu He anymore, but when he doesn't, he looks as if he is more distant, as if he will disappear in front of Yu He's eyes the next moment.

Even the soul becomes light.

Yu He found himself a little panicked.

Qingcheng Xie : "Go back. It's on me."

"But I--" Yu He white face, "You shouldn't ......"

"There's nothing wrong with that. I'm an adult, thirteen years older than you, do you think I'll be able to take care of myself? I don't need you to teach me anything."

"......"

Yu He looked at Qingcheng Xie pale, weak, indifferent, powerful, distant look, a moment, he was actually engaged by the evil beast inside the chest almost can not even breathe.

What's wrong with him?

He is ......

"Let's just let yesterday go."

"Why ...... Qingcheng Xie ...... why? Is it bad for us to be that way?"

"Not good."

"But why ......"

Qingcheng Xie was quiet for a moment: "Because I don't like you, and you don't like me, Yu He . So that's just wrong."

"Didn't you say that men should be responsible? Then I tell you, being responsible means that, in the future, we should only do things like this with people we like."

"Otherwise it's torture for each other."

Suddenly.

Everything is quiet.

The word "like" entered my ears.

The giant beast in the chest devours the heart.

Heartbeat stopped abruptly. The ears are empty and I can't hear anything.

The last bit of blood faded from Yu He's face.

He looked up sharply and stared into Qingcheng Xie's eyes. As if he suddenly wanted to understand something, as if he suddenly wanted to touch some truth-

Like ......

-- I don't like you, and you don't like me.

We should, in the future, only do such things with people we like.

Otherwise, it is a torture to each other ......

The distant mountains seemed to tremble, the earth shook, Yu He's heart swallowed by the evil beast triggered a shocking earthquake, his broken, sick heart became the source of the tremor, the huge shock spread to his whole body, even the fingertips were in danger.

Like it?

The beast seemed to be awakened in the heart of the gods majestically called the name, the name is like a tight band, instantly tightened its teeth and claws of the pang body.

"Like."

This name over and over again in his heart of beacon wolf smoke, over and over again in the ears of the monster, the monster enjoy narrowing his eyes, to two words issued a low, inescapable echo.

Yes, it says.

That's what I call it.

That's the kind of feeling I have.

Do you get it ...... you ...... finally called my name right in the earth cracked and the mountains collapsed and found the key to tame me?

The behemoth slowly spat out that one stagnant heart.

A few seconds later -

"Bang, bang".

The blood-stained heart beat anew.

One by one, faster and faster, more and more urgent, apprehensive, crazy and crazy, into the sound of drums, shaking his eyes red ......

Yu He's face was hard to see very thoroughly.

In Qingcheng Xie's cross-examination, he suddenly noticed these actions that he had done instinctively but had never thought about the motives.

It's all ......

All this love and lust is deep and wrapped around the finger.

All this is entangled and cannot be surrendered.

-- Could it be ......

Is it all because you like it?

He, he this is ...... like Qingcheng Xie?!